Whatever
Well today blew! I woke up to dad yelling at me because Ellen and Melissa are here and I was sleeping in. Then I come online only to find the one person I want to talk to isnt on. Shes out with her sis. Then later shes out with band people. Not really a new thing now-a-days but it still drives me bonkers. Beths got a boyfriend now. I found out a couple days ago, it hurts, but I have to live cause the only way I get to keep her is if she can keep him. People always wonder why I break up with people so early in the relationship...because noone has ever loved me enough to not hurt me, so theirs no point. This time I guess I waited to long, reminds me of the thing with Matt...at least Chucky's not my bestfriend...I dont know, maybe I deserve it, maybe I am just not fit to be loved. He'll probably call her tonight. Something I can't do. I can picture it now, Beth and Chucky all cuddled up by the fireplace on Christmas night,
*lifts glass* here's to another night alone Brit, get used to it
"here's my heart, bleeding before you
this is me down on my knees
and these foolish games are tearing me apart
and your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
their breaking my heart"
*lifts glass* here's to another night alone Brit, get used to it
"here's my heart, bleeding before you
this is me down on my knees
and these foolish games are tearing me apart
and your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
their breaking my heart"