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"Resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die." -Malachy McCourt
I like this quote because it is so true.
This week Karen came to visit Grandma and Grandpa and she brought Alex with her. Alex is my 3 year old cousin's son. He is such a good kid and so well behaved. I feel so overwhelmed though because I learned so much more about my dad's family then I really wanted to know. You know every family is disfunctional and has tons of secrets and there are always all these things that no one wants to talk about or you do want to talk about them to deal with them but then you can't because other people can't deal with it yet. Well, I don't know if it is easier to deal with family crap or to just know and file it away in your mind and deal with it later. Or both or I could live in the pleasent state of denial. But I think that our family has some real medical problems that no one wants to talk about but, I for one would rather know if learning disabilities and mental disorders run in my family because I could at least watch for signs in 1myself and 2kids if I have them.
family issues
So my "perfect" grandpa might have severe dislexia, which explains several things. I learned that my great great grandma was "touched" which in modern terms translates to depression/bi-polar/personality disorder. Jess and Cathy both have the same or similar issues. ADD/ADHD runs rampent in our family effecting lots of us, me included I just don't take meds for it because I have a mild case and I can cope without it. Grandma and Grandpa only hear what they want to hear and don't really know their children at all or want to. And apparently my parents have the best marriage out of my dad's brothers and sister. Which kind of scares me because I know how messed up my family is and to say we have the best is terrifying.
Sometimes I think the asians have the right idea with tight knit family groups and sometimes I would just rather run far, far away and pretend they don't exsist.
Will have to think more about that.
family can be really depressing.
I like this quote because it is so true.
This week Karen came to visit Grandma and Grandpa and she brought Alex with her. Alex is my 3 year old cousin's son. He is such a good kid and so well behaved. I feel so overwhelmed though because I learned so much more about my dad's family then I really wanted to know. You know every family is disfunctional and has tons of secrets and there are always all these things that no one wants to talk about or you do want to talk about them to deal with them but then you can't because other people can't deal with it yet. Well, I don't know if it is easier to deal with family crap or to just know and file it away in your mind and deal with it later. Or both or I could live in the pleasent state of denial. But I think that our family has some real medical problems that no one wants to talk about but, I for one would rather know if learning disabilities and mental disorders run in my family because I could at least watch for signs in 1myself and 2kids if I have them.
family issues
So my "perfect" grandpa might have severe dislexia, which explains several things. I learned that my great great grandma was "touched" which in modern terms translates to depression/bi-polar/personality disorder. Jess and Cathy both have the same or similar issues. ADD/ADHD runs rampent in our family effecting lots of us, me included I just don't take meds for it because I have a mild case and I can cope without it. Grandma and Grandpa only hear what they want to hear and don't really know their children at all or want to. And apparently my parents have the best marriage out of my dad's brothers and sister. Which kind of scares me because I know how messed up my family is and to say we have the best is terrifying.
Sometimes I think the asians have the right idea with tight knit family groups and sometimes I would just rather run far, far away and pretend they don't exsist.
Will have to think more about that.
family can be really depressing.