Getadelt wird wer Schmerzen kennt

[enemy__within__]

once again i am writing in this knowing that no one reads or wants to hear my problems but whatever.so far, today has sucked a lot. i had to wake up at 7:30 this morning to go to my neces soccer game at meldrum bar. if you hadnt noticed, its pouring down rain. so that was fun. NOT. then when i got home, i did some chores then sat down, had some pancakes and i have just been sitting around since. all of my friends are gone doing other stuff while i sit here and rot. thanks guys. i dont understand why i get so jealous sometimes. i was up most of the night last night thinking about it, and her. i seriously cant get her off my mind. and im sure most of you think im obsessed or just insane. well you got the 2nd part right. i just really really like her a lot and i dont know, i just want this so bad but i think shes changed direction and is goin that way. which is fine because i want to see her happy because she is a really good friend of mine, but it just really sucks cause i dont want to be alone and i like her so much it just really hurts to have it happen. i never thought it would happen to me but i spoke too soon. and it also seems like EVERYONE around me is in a relationship, and im not. its really depressing and im not stupid, i know everyone isnt with someone but it just feels like it. i hate to say it, but this spring break sucked BIG TIME. i mean come on, youd be lying if you said the weather was 1/2 way decent . im sure a lot of people went and did fun stuff. i did too. i got to hang out with my best friend all week and terrorize his neighborhood. but i really just wish the weather would have been nice, because after all, it is spring break. and i seriously cannot wait to get my own truck and a license. if i do, which is dependant on me, this will be the best summer ever. but the only bad thing is i have to get a job. hopefully i can work somewhere fun with a friend. that would be good. but what i would really like more than anything right now, would be to be at the dunes on the coast with a dirt bike so i could just ride. i miss that feeling of just hauling ass and barely hanging on and its just the funnest thing ever. well im all out of things to write about so im gonna go. im freezing cold and i dont have anything to do. oh yeah and if anyone wants to donate about $270 so i could get a tama iron cobra double bass pedal for my drums, that would be siiiiiiiiiiiiiick. but yeah. so later. and if you feel the need to comment go ahead and do so.

HIM makes me sad when i listen to it......like poison girl.....its like he's singing what im feeling. hmm kinda makes you think, huh?