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its funny looking back on your livejournal and looking at all the things you did...all the STUPID things you did. and all the people you hung out with, that you either despise now, or just dont really talk to. its kinda a trip. just to see how iv grown over the years, and to see how much iv learned. and i thought i am still immature...but shit, thats nothing compared to just a few years ago. to think, i actually thought i knew who i was back in 9th grade, and thinking..."god, these people need to really get it together" haha but i was just as out there as the next person. and nobody really finds "who they are" they become content with who they are, they grow, they learn, and they live life to the fullest.
recently tho, i feel like a 20 year old. i go to work everyday, and i do school work at starbucks...but have NO car, or license. i should really get on that...haha even though i keep thinking to myself, i really want a guy...its gettin lonely here in 'Brittni Land' but then again, everyone around me is falling apart, or getting fucked over. so ehh maybe its a bad time of year?! haha summer is coming up, everything will get better!
I think i've finally realized who is really my friend, and really how lucky i am to have two best friends like Mosie and Michael. cause i know those are two that will last a lifetime. and hopefully i will have more to last me that long too. but really they are what have made me realize who i am and who i want to be. where was drinking and smoking getting me?...it was getting me to being as bad as my brother. and why would you want to follow in the footsteps of a failure? i always wanted to be like my older brother, and i do thank him for getting me into music, that is one thing that i wouldnt be without. but he has also brought me down with him, and i thank God everyday that i was strong enough to say NO and choose my own path. and i can see now that it was the right one, and it will get me far...
I thank certain people for the life lesson they have taught me, without even knowing it.
p.s. i got my bettie page bangs back!! woohoo!
recently tho, i feel like a 20 year old. i go to work everyday, and i do school work at starbucks...but have NO car, or license. i should really get on that...haha even though i keep thinking to myself, i really want a guy...its gettin lonely here in 'Brittni Land' but then again, everyone around me is falling apart, or getting fucked over. so ehh maybe its a bad time of year?! haha summer is coming up, everything will get better!
I think i've finally realized who is really my friend, and really how lucky i am to have two best friends like Mosie and Michael. cause i know those are two that will last a lifetime. and hopefully i will have more to last me that long too. but really they are what have made me realize who i am and who i want to be. where was drinking and smoking getting me?...it was getting me to being as bad as my brother. and why would you want to follow in the footsteps of a failure? i always wanted to be like my older brother, and i do thank him for getting me into music, that is one thing that i wouldnt be without. but he has also brought me down with him, and i thank God everyday that i was strong enough to say NO and choose my own path. and i can see now that it was the right one, and it will get me far...
I thank certain people for the life lesson they have taught me, without even knowing it.
p.s. i got my bettie page bangs back!! woohoo!