The Final Week
Well, this is the last post I'll be making that will count towards a class. From now on, all posts about my trip this summer or my stories will count for... well, nothing other than my own personal satisfaction. This has been a very busy semester, between convention and sixteen hours and working and all of the general craziness that's a part of ordinary life. I turned 21 this semester, and for some reason I still want to tell people that I'm twenty, haha. ^_^ It's okay, though. I do feel more like a grown up as the three weeks since my birthday has passed; and I'm definitely okay with becoming a grown up. I don't feel like a little child anymore, or a teenager, I feel like an adult -- which is still a little scary, but at the same time it's that same feeling you get when you finally grow into big kid shoes or something, you know? I think this summer is going to be one of the final pieces in my transition from childhood to adulthood. I know that God is going to do great things, and I'm excited to see the works He will do in people's lives, as well as in my own life. The team in Austria will be doing kids ministry, street ministry, ministering to the homeless, and traveling to places like Venice and Budapest. I'm looking forward to completely submitting myself to God and listening to His voice and calling this summer. It's going to be hard to be away from my family for so long, but I think it will be good for me. It's time that I stopped trying to take care of my family all by myself -- I need to trust that God knows what He's doing and can take care of them just fine without my help (or interference, depending on how you look at it ^_^). I want this summer to be a chance for God to do some major breakthroughs in my life as well; there are a lot of things that I need to surrender to Him, and I think the separation from my comfort zone and ultimate dependence on Him will strengthen our relationship and help me get to that place of complete surrender and trust. He has been faithful and just, and I want to do everything in my power to honor the sacrifice of His Son given for me. My God deserves nothing less. I want to pursue my God, and live a life of holiness that is pleasing in His sight. I want to let go of my selfish human desire to please myself and worry only about pleasing Him.