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Im so sick of trying and getting nothing in return. I was fine with the whole thing untill yesterday when Ash called me. All her problems made me remember mine. I had moved on and put him in the back of my mind. But now its all here again. The worst part is that he doesnt care. He doesnt care, hes not even thinking of me and doesnt think anything is wrong. If only he could just get online so i could at least talk to him that way, since I know he will never call. I talked to Britta about it last night and she said some cold reality things that I just didnt want to hear. We both knew them and it needed to be out. Thankyou so much for helping me to realize that I cant just forget this. Also Britta helped me to decide how I am going to handle this when I come back. Face to Face. I know that I am a pushover and because I like him I will end up excepting whatever answer he gives and let things stay the same. But I can't do that this time.
I need to just forget about him and give him the cold shoulder like he is doing to me. I am not going to call him again and I am going to put this all behind me during Europe. Then when I come home, I will be moving and hopefully camping... but sometime during my time back before I leave on the 28th I HAVE to talk to him. Whether I show up at his house or he ends up at tae kwon do.. I dont know if i want to talk there though because that would mean that other people would see us and that would make me uncomfortable.
I was suppose to take Amy on that driving course since tuesday. Wednesday i was busy and she called again. Thursday I tried to call her 4 times and never got an answer. So i just called her now and i didnt get an answer again. Guess she really doesnt care.
Today is my last day of work before I come back the 8th! how sweet is that. Although I wont be making any money i wont need it cause i wont be here!
We move on the 25th and that will be exciting.. especially since I have no bed yet because I am not taking this one along. Once we are all moved in Im going to have a b-day party since i never had one on my birthday. So everyone be ready!
Im going to go get a shower and maybe end up at Bryans house today. Seeya
I need to just forget about him and give him the cold shoulder like he is doing to me. I am not going to call him again and I am going to put this all behind me during Europe. Then when I come home, I will be moving and hopefully camping... but sometime during my time back before I leave on the 28th I HAVE to talk to him. Whether I show up at his house or he ends up at tae kwon do.. I dont know if i want to talk there though because that would mean that other people would see us and that would make me uncomfortable.
I was suppose to take Amy on that driving course since tuesday. Wednesday i was busy and she called again. Thursday I tried to call her 4 times and never got an answer. So i just called her now and i didnt get an answer again. Guess she really doesnt care.
Today is my last day of work before I come back the 8th! how sweet is that. Although I wont be making any money i wont need it cause i wont be here!
We move on the 25th and that will be exciting.. especially since I have no bed yet because I am not taking this one along. Once we are all moved in Im going to have a b-day party since i never had one on my birthday. So everyone be ready!
Im going to go get a shower and maybe end up at Bryans house today. Seeya