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Wow. So many things have been running through my head. i hate when people use the she and he thing as code names in their journals so no one knows who they are talking about but i think i may have to use it in this entry, so i am apologizing now. also using livejournal to vent is okay to read but not to write cause no one really cares anyhow.. o well today has to be an exception.. maybe ill make it private or something.. okay im on a tangent now.. back on task..
Okay so i was pretty excited the last time i wrote in here but it was late and i was tired, so i said very little. To recap on that - I guess i am "officially" going out with Brad now. although it doesnt feel much different. I was afraid that it was going to be weird today but he acted like he usually does. haha so i guess thats a good thing. hopefully he cant read this. anyhow the "guy" (theres the secret word) that i have secretly liked for a long time still barely talks to me but i guess it doesnt matter though.. even though ill always secretly wish that he liked me. see now how confusing is that. sorry... im done.
Now, i dont really want to talk about school so ill say very little. I didnt do as well as i had hoped on the biology final.. but i guess i just have to put the past behnd me now because i cant change it. everything else was good and i hope it doesnt hurt me too much.
I am going to take the SATs again this saturday which is going to be a pain. I hated it the first time and that was in my own school. now i have to go to altoona and take it. which makes me want to cry. haha.
Wow im in a really wierd mood today. in fact i have been in a weird mood all week. Maybe thats why everything just doesnt seem real. Seeing Brad today made me feel more normal.. like it use to be, but other then him everything seems different. I cant explain it.. but im not sure yet if i like it or not.
During English today i went to lunch and got to talk to elisha, sara, and phylicia which was pretty cool since i dont get to see the three of them much. And Alex tried to get us to take him on a date to the movies , if we paid, he sounded so much like mr. moore. it was crazy. Not that mr. Moore has ever asked me to take him to the movies but you know what i mean.
Then I also went to lunch during Drama.. but i didnt eat this time. I played cards with Andrew and Steve, then watched Nat and Alex play spit and Nat's Jack fell down and broke his crown .. hahaha.
Spanish we played some wierd game. I didnt like it to much. it was pointless. But we are probably doing the same thing tomorrow
In math class I talk to Brittany about her new love and all the trouble the whole thing is causing. I hope she goes out with him. he seems nice to me and u can tell she likes him and he really likes her. After we talked about that for awhile I got online with my cell phone and sure enough Brad was on. So I figured out how to IM him after many unsuccessful tries (hahahaha) and talked to him untill 9th period when i decided tro play spit with Allison.. she won but not by much. it was a tough battle.
I took a nap when i came home and then went to tae kwon do.. where i hurt my leg. And now i wanna cry cause it hurts alot. I showed the girls my prom pictures and I also showed Rocko. haha he liked them.
I stayed and talked to Devin (brads brother) awhile and he told me I should really like Gimli from the Lord of the Rings because i am short like him.. only he is prettier then me.. haha... Brad thought that was a funny joke. well i guess it was :/
And now Becka is at my house. SHe is my sisters friend and i dont like her at all.. so i am trying to avoid her as much as i can.. My mom and I went on an expedition tonight but we have saftley arived home and I think Its time for bed.. even though i feel too weird to go to sleep.
Well now that i vented all i feel necessary i dont really feel any better.... thats a shame but o well.. night kiddies
Okay so i was pretty excited the last time i wrote in here but it was late and i was tired, so i said very little. To recap on that - I guess i am "officially" going out with Brad now. although it doesnt feel much different. I was afraid that it was going to be weird today but he acted like he usually does. haha so i guess thats a good thing. hopefully he cant read this. anyhow the "guy" (theres the secret word) that i have secretly liked for a long time still barely talks to me but i guess it doesnt matter though.. even though ill always secretly wish that he liked me. see now how confusing is that. sorry... im done.
Now, i dont really want to talk about school so ill say very little. I didnt do as well as i had hoped on the biology final.. but i guess i just have to put the past behnd me now because i cant change it. everything else was good and i hope it doesnt hurt me too much.
I am going to take the SATs again this saturday which is going to be a pain. I hated it the first time and that was in my own school. now i have to go to altoona and take it. which makes me want to cry. haha.
Wow im in a really wierd mood today. in fact i have been in a weird mood all week. Maybe thats why everything just doesnt seem real. Seeing Brad today made me feel more normal.. like it use to be, but other then him everything seems different. I cant explain it.. but im not sure yet if i like it or not.
During English today i went to lunch and got to talk to elisha, sara, and phylicia which was pretty cool since i dont get to see the three of them much. And Alex tried to get us to take him on a date to the movies , if we paid, he sounded so much like mr. moore. it was crazy. Not that mr. Moore has ever asked me to take him to the movies but you know what i mean.
Then I also went to lunch during Drama.. but i didnt eat this time. I played cards with Andrew and Steve, then watched Nat and Alex play spit and Nat's Jack fell down and broke his crown .. hahaha.
Spanish we played some wierd game. I didnt like it to much. it was pointless. But we are probably doing the same thing tomorrow
In math class I talk to Brittany about her new love and all the trouble the whole thing is causing. I hope she goes out with him. he seems nice to me and u can tell she likes him and he really likes her. After we talked about that for awhile I got online with my cell phone and sure enough Brad was on. So I figured out how to IM him after many unsuccessful tries (hahahaha) and talked to him untill 9th period when i decided tro play spit with Allison.. she won but not by much. it was a tough battle.
I took a nap when i came home and then went to tae kwon do.. where i hurt my leg. And now i wanna cry cause it hurts alot. I showed the girls my prom pictures and I also showed Rocko. haha he liked them.
I stayed and talked to Devin (brads brother) awhile and he told me I should really like Gimli from the Lord of the Rings because i am short like him.. only he is prettier then me.. haha... Brad thought that was a funny joke. well i guess it was :/
And now Becka is at my house. SHe is my sisters friend and i dont like her at all.. so i am trying to avoid her as much as i can.. My mom and I went on an expedition tonight but we have saftley arived home and I think Its time for bed.. even though i feel too weird to go to sleep.
Well now that i vented all i feel necessary i dont really feel any better.... thats a shame but o well.. night kiddies