S.A.D
It seems everyone has Seasonal Affective Disorder, or something like that, cos everyone is getting real depressed lately. It makes me sad to see all these people i consider my friends, that i had the pleasure of meeting and hanging out with and having a GRAND old time with, so fucking depressed and not be able to do anything about it because i know for at least one of them i managed to bring a little sunshine into their life for about...3 days? 2 days? something like that. She was giggling like a madman anywho :P she knows who she is and she knows i adore her.
Everyone else...sigh, i had such a good time and i got so fucking depressed the month following but i realised that...this is my life now and if i want to have a better one, one where i can experience everything i want to experience i have to work hard and keep striving to be better.
I feel like since i got back from Chi-town i've started seeing a positive change in not only myself but in the way i live my life, i've started having a more positive outlook on life and started to believe in myself. Before everything was such a dream but meeting so many people who live for what they do it made me realise that all it takes is hard work.
To all those friends who could read this remember, i love you. It's not superficial, it's not me being comforting, it's me being thankful for having met such wonderful people. Me being thankful for people being so welcoming. For someone donating all their weed to help people have a good weekend.
Thank you.
I love you guys.
Everyone else...sigh, i had such a good time and i got so fucking depressed the month following but i realised that...this is my life now and if i want to have a better one, one where i can experience everything i want to experience i have to work hard and keep striving to be better.
I feel like since i got back from Chi-town i've started seeing a positive change in not only myself but in the way i live my life, i've started having a more positive outlook on life and started to believe in myself. Before everything was such a dream but meeting so many people who live for what they do it made me realise that all it takes is hard work.
To all those friends who could read this remember, i love you. It's not superficial, it's not me being comforting, it's me being thankful for having met such wonderful people. Me being thankful for people being so welcoming. For someone donating all their weed to help people have a good weekend.
Thank you.
I love you guys.