It's happening again...
...that renewed interest in something I thought I lost for good. I had been talking for eons about wanting to study in europe. And after a while, I guess with so many changes that had occurred in my life, those plans changed as well. I was and still am ready to move on to other parts of my life, but that zest for a life in europe has reignited itself and I must say it has come back stronger than ever. I gather it has come from people being a constant positive force in my life, especially Kevin. He has been nothing but good and I think it's finally starting to all sink in for once. I really don't see anything stopping me from getting the jobs I want or going to Europe like I want...only my self doubt. I know I have what it takes I just need to get up and do something about it.
So I think next year, I am going to do those European opera house auditions. I have nothing to lose by trying and could very well be picked up by someone or several companies. Who knows? I'll only find out by trying and if that's where the fates wish to take me, then I'm all for it. I think my darling Terren is the one who really brought it back up.
A couple of evenings ago, Kevin and I were listening to different singers and I came to the realization that while I may joke a lot about the stuff I do, it really is pretty darn tasteful. I don't give myself nearly enough credit for the type of musician I am and I think I worry too much about having to have it all perfect all the time. I should cut myself some slack I guess. But what musician doesn't do that? Kevin is even guilty of that. I think we all are. But these next couple of years are going to be years of trying and most likely failing, but I'm going to try everything I come across, because I never know what can happen. And I refuse to live with regret.
Okay, enough rambling. It's Christmas Music Time, YEAH!!!
JINGLE BELLS BICHES!!!
Antoine
So I think next year, I am going to do those European opera house auditions. I have nothing to lose by trying and could very well be picked up by someone or several companies. Who knows? I'll only find out by trying and if that's where the fates wish to take me, then I'm all for it. I think my darling Terren is the one who really brought it back up.
A couple of evenings ago, Kevin and I were listening to different singers and I came to the realization that while I may joke a lot about the stuff I do, it really is pretty darn tasteful. I don't give myself nearly enough credit for the type of musician I am and I think I worry too much about having to have it all perfect all the time. I should cut myself some slack I guess. But what musician doesn't do that? Kevin is even guilty of that. I think we all are. But these next couple of years are going to be years of trying and most likely failing, but I'm going to try everything I come across, because I never know what can happen. And I refuse to live with regret.
Okay, enough rambling. It's Christmas Music Time, YEAH!!!
JINGLE BELLS BICHES!!!
Antoine