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So yeah going away didnt happen,i had a feeling it wouldnt but i was hoping it would.Its kind of frustrating that one person can change things so dramatically,im not one to go all d&m in here,its usually more of a photo album but screw that.Im frustrated that i couldnt go and see family because of a selfish act,i hate that everything that happens,these day especially is so uncertain and i cant plan anything in case i let someone down.
People are weird,i dont know what motivates them to do certain things sometimes.I have been in the presence of some pretty shitty people,but were all people,they have just done things a lot worse than me.Some people miss years of their life cause they are so screwed up in other stuff and i think thats really sad,but once people get to a certain age, they have made their mind up and its hard to just turn them around because you tell them "you will be better off".Its really important to stand by those you love, because they wont be here forever.If you just forget about them and move on your going to regret it one day,so even if major shit happens between you or they have done wrong things,stand by them and be strong because they may need you more than you will ever know.There are some out there who think there Christians and then when someone leaves there church they call them bad people,i really dont think thats very christian,being there for the bad person when they need is being christian,its ok though your all getting found out now anyway.
You will realise how strong you are when the time comes,how crazy the world is and how much you need those around you.No matter how bad times get you cant let it get to you,its hard to block it all out and move on but sometimes you have to.Everyone has problems but at different levels,the world isnt ending if something bad happens its just changing.If everything does not go the way you wanted it to,at least you know in your heart you tried you best and had faith in the situation.You can only hope for the best.
xxoo.