Ever Persistent Depression
Hey.
Just a quick update.
COVID-19 has changed a lot of things. Being a natural hermit, I've largely been alright with staying home and away from people. Aaron had it hard the first few months, but he found his groove. In fact, he's in the best shape of our entire relationship. And somehow, I'm in the worst.
I do think it's partly because of the antidepressants, combined with the traditional "love handles" one gets in a comfy relationship. But that aside, the pills are making me less sexually active than I used to be - which is a burden. And sometimes, my inadequacies and impostor syndrome compound together so heavily that I get more depressed than I've ever felt before, despite the meds.
These last two months have been hard. My ever waning sense of purpose gets eclipsed by my failed goals, my lack of proper planning, and what I consider my own failure to be a proper adult. I love Aaron so much... I just hope I'm not letting him down.