I am the Sovereign
Evolution. It's what we, as humans, inevitably do. I recall when I created my MySpace account for the first time, my About Me said, "I am still looking for that one thing I need to, and for that, to whatever distances it may bring me, I will reappear again one day."
Since then I haven't felt truly whole, and while I still don't, I've tried in many areas to fill the void. Kevin said he wanted to be that "thing", but I said no very quickly. Other ideas have started to give me a greater understanding for what I was looking for, but even to this very moment I believe I am unfulfilled, incomplete, and lacking the knowledge I need to be whole. The good thing, however, is that I've never felt more close to the truth in my entire life. Reading about quantum mechanics in their most simplistic terms, as well as gaining control over my emotional states, learning through outbursts and other fervors of how I truly work inside, how I will react and how to understand my feelings, I'm gaining a supremely greater insight into this world than I ever have before. Molecularly and within the boundaries of thought, I'm beginning to feel more balanced than I ever have. I feel in control, and while the answers may still be ages away for humanity, mine are slowly coming to fruition. It's nice to see a positive change for once. Now if I can get a career in order, or start that NOVEL like my medium, entire family, friends and teachers have suggested, perhaps I can be getting on the road to completing my life's work.
In other news: Cory and I are moving soon, to a different apt/house, hopefully. I'm finally getting in touch with Cameryn again (we're e-mail penpals), work is satisfying and exhausting, and I'm watching LOST. Good series. Also, I've had nearly an entire bottle of champagne already. Eleven-point-seven percent alcohol, plus cranberry juice and frozen blue berries. Cory's idea . Delicious.
Since then I haven't felt truly whole, and while I still don't, I've tried in many areas to fill the void. Kevin said he wanted to be that "thing", but I said no very quickly. Other ideas have started to give me a greater understanding for what I was looking for, but even to this very moment I believe I am unfulfilled, incomplete, and lacking the knowledge I need to be whole. The good thing, however, is that I've never felt more close to the truth in my entire life. Reading about quantum mechanics in their most simplistic terms, as well as gaining control over my emotional states, learning through outbursts and other fervors of how I truly work inside, how I will react and how to understand my feelings, I'm gaining a supremely greater insight into this world than I ever have before. Molecularly and within the boundaries of thought, I'm beginning to feel more balanced than I ever have. I feel in control, and while the answers may still be ages away for humanity, mine are slowly coming to fruition. It's nice to see a positive change for once. Now if I can get a career in order, or start that NOVEL like my medium, entire family, friends and teachers have suggested, perhaps I can be getting on the road to completing my life's work.
In other news: Cory and I are moving soon, to a different apt/house, hopefully. I'm finally getting in touch with Cameryn again (we're e-mail penpals), work is satisfying and exhausting, and I'm watching LOST. Good series. Also, I've had nearly an entire bottle of champagne already. Eleven-point-seven percent alcohol, plus cranberry juice and frozen blue berries. Cory's idea . Delicious.