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no more driving, today is day 1.
i'll be back on the road on january 15th! ... its not that long, right?
and i mean, that's worst case scenario. who knows. i cant even freak out about it anymore. its way way too stressful. ive been watching hours and hours of scrubs and currently enjoying all 3 austin powers movies back to back.. to back. then paulie shores new show which i must watch of course. and i am looking forward to going to a traditional and awesome japanese restaurant with eric tomorrow. he didnt make fun of me when i cried cause i lost my lisence. and yes i did, you would too, it sucks really bad. but then iguess it doesnt. i actually had a meal today at home, leisurely, with my mom and my sister. at the kitchen table. that seriously hasnt happened in a really long time. it only happens once a month or so. i havent talked to my dad in weeks, not since his "new daughter's" delightful away message about her swimming with her dad. my dad. you know. so im just gonna avoid that so i dont completely fall apart. i am really glad that the band played a show this friday because when i was singing and playing and i heard the way we sounded, all together, i really did forget about everything that is going wrong. i know people say that, or i guess they do.. that playing music makes "all your troubles disappear." it's the truth. i loved watching those people look at us and listento us, and it just made me happier than i thought possible. its making me happy just remembering it.
i dont really know who reads livejournal and whatever, but im glad that i have one because i really like writing. i decided that i am going to write a book. it sounds ridiculous, but im going to do it. its going to be .. i guess, like a memoir-self help- growing up- dealing wtih issues- boyfriends- parents - friends/not friends- drama - people thinking there is drama when there isnt any.. just to make more drama - music- love- hate -me.. type thing. i dont know. youre reading this like what the hell? who writes books. really. but im going to do it and when it gets published you will remember reading this and calling me a jabroni in your head. im not giving myself a deadline of course, i am late for everything. and this is gonna come to me naturally, so i am just going to let it happen as it happens.
i love eric, and i am not one to go on and on about my pookie and how i miss him even though i just saw him yesterday and that i wish i could fall asleep with him blablabla. it's all the truth, and i guess i just dont write about it cause if i feel that way, cause i can just call him and tell him. but he is working right now. he cheered me up in a good 5 minutes when i felt like i was going to pass out due to stress last week. he thinks i am so funny and i love when he laughs at my faces and mannerisms that i only do so i can watch him and hear him laugh. he gets mad cause i always leave his cupboards open and the bathroom light on cause i fix my hair or something.. i dont know why i cant do that. but anyway, i went there yesterday and he had the AC on and we wrapped up together in this big comforter on his couch and watched curb your enthusiasm on HBO for hours, and we kissed, and drank applejuice and had cookie dough icecream. and it was the simplest night, but it made me so happy. and thats all i need. i like to go out too. see movies and buy shoes and belts and tee shirts and stuff. but there is nothing sweeter than being close to him, wrapped up in his warmth, feeling like the luckiest girl in the world.
go to mollusk fest, too.
<3lianne
i'll be back on the road on january 15th! ... its not that long, right?
and i mean, that's worst case scenario. who knows. i cant even freak out about it anymore. its way way too stressful. ive been watching hours and hours of scrubs and currently enjoying all 3 austin powers movies back to back.. to back. then paulie shores new show which i must watch of course. and i am looking forward to going to a traditional and awesome japanese restaurant with eric tomorrow. he didnt make fun of me when i cried cause i lost my lisence. and yes i did, you would too, it sucks really bad. but then iguess it doesnt. i actually had a meal today at home, leisurely, with my mom and my sister. at the kitchen table. that seriously hasnt happened in a really long time. it only happens once a month or so. i havent talked to my dad in weeks, not since his "new daughter's" delightful away message about her swimming with her dad. my dad. you know. so im just gonna avoid that so i dont completely fall apart. i am really glad that the band played a show this friday because when i was singing and playing and i heard the way we sounded, all together, i really did forget about everything that is going wrong. i know people say that, or i guess they do.. that playing music makes "all your troubles disappear." it's the truth. i loved watching those people look at us and listento us, and it just made me happier than i thought possible. its making me happy just remembering it.
i dont really know who reads livejournal and whatever, but im glad that i have one because i really like writing. i decided that i am going to write a book. it sounds ridiculous, but im going to do it. its going to be .. i guess, like a memoir-self help- growing up- dealing wtih issues- boyfriends- parents - friends/not friends- drama - people thinking there is drama when there isnt any.. just to make more drama - music- love- hate -me.. type thing. i dont know. youre reading this like what the hell? who writes books. really. but im going to do it and when it gets published you will remember reading this and calling me a jabroni in your head. im not giving myself a deadline of course, i am late for everything. and this is gonna come to me naturally, so i am just going to let it happen as it happens.
i love eric, and i am not one to go on and on about my pookie and how i miss him even though i just saw him yesterday and that i wish i could fall asleep with him blablabla. it's all the truth, and i guess i just dont write about it cause if i feel that way, cause i can just call him and tell him. but he is working right now. he cheered me up in a good 5 minutes when i felt like i was going to pass out due to stress last week. he thinks i am so funny and i love when he laughs at my faces and mannerisms that i only do so i can watch him and hear him laugh. he gets mad cause i always leave his cupboards open and the bathroom light on cause i fix my hair or something.. i dont know why i cant do that. but anyway, i went there yesterday and he had the AC on and we wrapped up together in this big comforter on his couch and watched curb your enthusiasm on HBO for hours, and we kissed, and drank applejuice and had cookie dough icecream. and it was the simplest night, but it made me so happy. and thats all i need. i like to go out too. see movies and buy shoes and belts and tee shirts and stuff. but there is nothing sweeter than being close to him, wrapped up in his warmth, feeling like the luckiest girl in the world.
go to mollusk fest, too.
<3lianne