numb
so we're back to this. I feel weird. Watching so you think you can dance and it makes me sad, that i'm not taking my abilities to where i am capable of. anyways. going through a rough patch in life i suppose. anxiety..depression.. temptation to something I know better than to go towards. i think if josh leaves ill be really upset. there's some sort of comfort there, that i would miss greatly. i haven't slept in weeks( says the lion in the wizard of oz) i'm broke. i'm lazy. i have no direction. i need love. i want to be held. i want to go fishing, and sit out by the water. i have to start dancing, it will solve a lot.