i think i need you
I realized today that I was disgusted with my attitude. I feel like I've been improving it, but I have such a strong spirit of independence. I have realized it before, but today I really focused on it.
I think that I can accomplish anything on my own. I never feel like I need help. I never feel like I have to do things the right way because I can figure it out on my own and I can handle shortcuts. I am preposterous.
And yeah, you know what, I usually do figure things out pretty well and I usually get things going in the right direction, but that doesn't mean I don't need help. I'm still a big time idiot who makes big time mistakes.
The truth is that I am scared. I've never been in this position before and I'm scared to reach out. Reaching out makes you so vulnerable.
And I am still angry.
I think that I can accomplish anything on my own. I never feel like I need help. I never feel like I have to do things the right way because I can figure it out on my own and I can handle shortcuts. I am preposterous.
And yeah, you know what, I usually do figure things out pretty well and I usually get things going in the right direction, but that doesn't mean I don't need help. I'm still a big time idiot who makes big time mistakes.
The truth is that I am scared. I've never been in this position before and I'm scared to reach out. Reaching out makes you so vulnerable.
And I am still angry.