Heartfelt
I've learned to appreciate my emotions. I used to ignore them and avoid them as much as possible. I thought it was smart because my feelings were always so wrong. People didn't understand that I was just trying to be strong. But I know better now. I can be still be strong and attack my feelings head on. Trying to avoid them just made me feel rotten in my stomach, my shoulders would tense up. I can still feel sour from embracing my emotions, but I feel better about it. I tackle them and beat them to submission.
I understand them and I agree with them, but I don't let them control me. When they get out of line, I show them the back of my hand. I remember other feelings that were hidden, feelings that can counteract and then a battle ensues. I am doing so much better now in remembering what is most important. I remember so much more. It can be so easy to forget. I really wish I could forget sometimes, but I never will, it is impossible. That love is just so strong. I finally found the way to place Jehovah deep in my heart. I never felt like that before. And with Him inside, controlling me, I feel so powerful. I have never ever been able to recognize His incredible love before. It was something I acknowledged, something I knew of, but never something that made its way deep into my life. His love was always on the outskirts of my heart, of my emotions, because my thoughts and feelings were always on something else, something personal. I yearned to be intelligent, successful, in love, and to just be a good person. But then somehow I came to know Him. Somehow His love made sense. I get overwhelmed by Him nearly all the time now. A few minutes of meditation and my heart swells over how much He cares.
I sing to him now. In the car, I sing him my sorrows and my praises. I make up any kind of rhyme and go with it. I don't ever want to let Him go. He is the only perfect and dependable love I will ever know. How could I turn my back on that? I can't get enough of His love. I just need to continually show myself worthy.
Its easy to point out a love for God as something all in someone's head. How could anyone feel THAT loved by someone they've never seen, touched, smelled, heard, or tasted? It may not even make sense to a lot of people, but I know that I cannot deny Him.
I understand them and I agree with them, but I don't let them control me. When they get out of line, I show them the back of my hand. I remember other feelings that were hidden, feelings that can counteract and then a battle ensues. I am doing so much better now in remembering what is most important. I remember so much more. It can be so easy to forget. I really wish I could forget sometimes, but I never will, it is impossible. That love is just so strong. I finally found the way to place Jehovah deep in my heart. I never felt like that before. And with Him inside, controlling me, I feel so powerful. I have never ever been able to recognize His incredible love before. It was something I acknowledged, something I knew of, but never something that made its way deep into my life. His love was always on the outskirts of my heart, of my emotions, because my thoughts and feelings were always on something else, something personal. I yearned to be intelligent, successful, in love, and to just be a good person. But then somehow I came to know Him. Somehow His love made sense. I get overwhelmed by Him nearly all the time now. A few minutes of meditation and my heart swells over how much He cares.
I sing to him now. In the car, I sing him my sorrows and my praises. I make up any kind of rhyme and go with it. I don't ever want to let Him go. He is the only perfect and dependable love I will ever know. How could I turn my back on that? I can't get enough of His love. I just need to continually show myself worthy.
Its easy to point out a love for God as something all in someone's head. How could anyone feel THAT loved by someone they've never seen, touched, smelled, heard, or tasted? It may not even make sense to a lot of people, but I know that I cannot deny Him.