Oh the tangled web we weave.
Sooooooooooo. Its been a while, I dunno why I felt like updating I just did. Haven't really been on this so much, I guess its kinda fell by the way side.
Incase you haven't noticed I am now in Missouri. Its boring out here, but thats not such a bad thing. I am able to save my money considering I have people I need to pay off soon. And I can get a car and get back on my feet and hopefully go to school.
I wanna change, I'm going to start taking advantage that I can walk next door to the Elks lodge and use the weight equipment. I've been dreaming of my past crushes lately, and that we actually hung out and they actually liked me. And I realized I'm sick of being scared. I swear the next girl I actually like I'm just going to be straight with it. I'm going to tell her and see what happens. Too many times have I sat on the sidelines and watch while the 3 major crushes I've ever had moved on to someone while I sat by and was support. Whatever. Its time to change.
On the other hand, its been propelling me to actually start writing my romance script. I've finished two issue's of my comic idea, and trying to work it out. I need to find friends out here to pass the time, go to shows and such.
If I could change one thing I would have handled friendship better with certain people, but I'm not going to be the one who does everything. I need to figure out where I need to be. IN life, in love in everything.
I dunno, I just have been thinking about different things I could have changed in a certain relationship where I felt like I was doing all the work, so I just cut the person off. And its been propelling my thoughts of other things. Other relationships.
That was a ramble, but its a new start, and I hope when I'm done with my time here I'm a little bit of a better person, and hopefully meet a nice girl. Hahaha.
Love for-fucking-ever.
Vella.
Incase you haven't noticed I am now in Missouri. Its boring out here, but thats not such a bad thing. I am able to save my money considering I have people I need to pay off soon. And I can get a car and get back on my feet and hopefully go to school.
I wanna change, I'm going to start taking advantage that I can walk next door to the Elks lodge and use the weight equipment. I've been dreaming of my past crushes lately, and that we actually hung out and they actually liked me. And I realized I'm sick of being scared. I swear the next girl I actually like I'm just going to be straight with it. I'm going to tell her and see what happens. Too many times have I sat on the sidelines and watch while the 3 major crushes I've ever had moved on to someone while I sat by and was support. Whatever. Its time to change.
On the other hand, its been propelling me to actually start writing my romance script. I've finished two issue's of my comic idea, and trying to work it out. I need to find friends out here to pass the time, go to shows and such.
If I could change one thing I would have handled friendship better with certain people, but I'm not going to be the one who does everything. I need to figure out where I need to be. IN life, in love in everything.
I dunno, I just have been thinking about different things I could have changed in a certain relationship where I felt like I was doing all the work, so I just cut the person off. And its been propelling my thoughts of other things. Other relationships.
That was a ramble, but its a new start, and I hope when I'm done with my time here I'm a little bit of a better person, and hopefully meet a nice girl. Hahaha.
Love for-fucking-ever.
Vella.