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mom is taking diet pills again.
she lost 5 lbs in one month.
she's so proud.
my dad and i keep telling her she's a drug addict.
she doesn't care.
she just wants to be midriff thin.
i understand that desire but
i don't like speed which is basically what she's on
even if the bottle says 100% herbal.
koreans believe in bullshit too easily.
but i took some, too.
my mom has two brands.
she didn't finish off the more expensive brand
and gave me the leftovers.
she says it doesn't give side effects like
the one she's on. no dizziness
or obvious lack of appetite.
i've been feeling pretty numb all summer.
maybe a diet pill addiction will wake me up.
no, i'm just kidding.
i just took it today bc i wanted to bond w my mother.
a twisted way but it's only 3 tiny pills.
i'm off to ny tomorrow to see some theater.
hopefully, the shows will de-numbify me.
gotta find ways to revive myself from
terminal adult lethargy.
i'd rather take anxiety over ennui.
can't stand restless boredom.
i wear the same shorts i bought from marshall's
everyday now. ever since soaking in my
polyester workout pants at the tennis court w kc.
made me feel all hot and stuffy.
not a welcoming feeling.
summer is for slumber.
i hate that.
hope not to return to northern virginia
for such a long break. i don't like the
in limbo, suburbia is death feeling.
not helpful or useful to someone who
should be creating the daylights out of herself.
my sister just wants someone to cuddle with.
will that solve the empty ache inside?
hate feeling hollow.
and i think we really hate ourselves
when we're hating others.
she lost 5 lbs in one month.
she's so proud.
my dad and i keep telling her she's a drug addict.
she doesn't care.
she just wants to be midriff thin.
i understand that desire but
i don't like speed which is basically what she's on
even if the bottle says 100% herbal.
koreans believe in bullshit too easily.
but i took some, too.
my mom has two brands.
she didn't finish off the more expensive brand
and gave me the leftovers.
she says it doesn't give side effects like
the one she's on. no dizziness
or obvious lack of appetite.
i've been feeling pretty numb all summer.
maybe a diet pill addiction will wake me up.
no, i'm just kidding.
i just took it today bc i wanted to bond w my mother.
a twisted way but it's only 3 tiny pills.
i'm off to ny tomorrow to see some theater.
hopefully, the shows will de-numbify me.
gotta find ways to revive myself from
terminal adult lethargy.
i'd rather take anxiety over ennui.
can't stand restless boredom.
i wear the same shorts i bought from marshall's
everyday now. ever since soaking in my
polyester workout pants at the tennis court w kc.
made me feel all hot and stuffy.
not a welcoming feeling.
summer is for slumber.
i hate that.
hope not to return to northern virginia
for such a long break. i don't like the
in limbo, suburbia is death feeling.
not helpful or useful to someone who
should be creating the daylights out of herself.
my sister just wants someone to cuddle with.
will that solve the empty ache inside?
hate feeling hollow.
and i think we really hate ourselves
when we're hating others.