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I'm sick of feeling like I'm nothing but a charity case for those I speak to. You all say you care? You all call me your friend? FUCK OFF!!!
The only reason most of you talk to me (with the exception of what I believe to be four) is because (a) you're afraid of me and think I'll go off if you tell me off, (b) You don't have it in you to be "cruel", or (c) You're using me as some form of a resource, whether it be sympathy, information, dealing with those you can't stand up to, good times, or whatever else you can think of.
I'm near going back to how I was when Shane got me hanging out with the others from Daemon13, I'm ready to tell the world to fuck off, stop investing emotion into humans, and stop interacting with humans on more than a business level.
Fuck it, high school's almost over, and then maybe I will go emotionally bankrupt. Maybe I will go back to looking out for just myself, and whatever I'll find fulfilling(sp?). I know one thing, I'm done aiding people to have them treat me like dirt.
Endi/Matt
P.S. People who want out of the "high school shit" shouldn't be reading highschoolers LJ's. But maybe that's just because they worry that their sources for information on me are telling what I tell them to. And you can't say that this is saying shit about you, because the only one who will understand this is you yourself if your reading it. This is merely a bit of advice about how to move on.
The only reason most of you talk to me (with the exception of what I believe to be four) is because (a) you're afraid of me and think I'll go off if you tell me off, (b) You don't have it in you to be "cruel", or (c) You're using me as some form of a resource, whether it be sympathy, information, dealing with those you can't stand up to, good times, or whatever else you can think of.
I'm near going back to how I was when Shane got me hanging out with the others from Daemon13, I'm ready to tell the world to fuck off, stop investing emotion into humans, and stop interacting with humans on more than a business level.
Fuck it, high school's almost over, and then maybe I will go emotionally bankrupt. Maybe I will go back to looking out for just myself, and whatever I'll find fulfilling(sp?). I know one thing, I'm done aiding people to have them treat me like dirt.
Endi/Matt
P.S. People who want out of the "high school shit" shouldn't be reading highschoolers LJ's. But maybe that's just because they worry that their sources for information on me are telling what I tell them to. And you can't say that this is saying shit about you, because the only one who will understand this is you yourself if your reading it. This is merely a bit of advice about how to move on.