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So yeah...what a freakin' day. I still like Doom, despite the mixed emotions about the memories.
I finally figured out how to get Final Form. Apparently, when that strategy online (mark I already beat the final boss and all) said you could get it anytime once you got to The World That Never Was, they neglected to mention that you have to have gotten every keyhole beside's the one in the book. Yeah...dickhead.
Alot of people were grossed out by my knee today...I don't care. Two new sections of drama started to spur up...those I have little care for. I found out I can start catching rides to school with Kara from now on...that made me freakin' exstatic.
I said once before...
"Everyone, it seems that the road just hit a million option split. Let's see if anyone takes the same path as me."
Seems like a random moment to bring that quote back, doesn't it? Not if you could see inside my head. I'm sick of staying around here and playing off people's pity, and thus being the reason they do stuff with me. No one ever really hangs out with me(with the exception of Rent), unless either it's a last resort, I impose, or something is going wrong in my life. I feel like with Rent I impose alot as well, leaving little situations that don't fit this description.
The games are done, it's time for me to not only live by my will, but to stop being such a burden to others. I don't expect that once we're away from school people will want to keep in touch with me. Certain people keep saying that they hope I stay nearby for atleast my first year of college, but I really feel they're just trying to be kind. I'm back to feeling like someone who people are only around when they must be, and in all honesty take shots at once they're gone.
The sadest part...I don't blame them,
Endi
P.S. I had applied to NYU this year expecting not to get in without an outstanding first year at OCC...I got in. Not only in, but in and financial aid covering all housing and food. I don't know if I'm ready. More and more keeps pushing me away, making me feel I need out. Today I found out that some of the people I thought understood me are actually annoyed by me...
I finally figured out how to get Final Form. Apparently, when that strategy online (mark I already beat the final boss and all) said you could get it anytime once you got to The World That Never Was, they neglected to mention that you have to have gotten every keyhole beside's the one in the book. Yeah...dickhead.
Alot of people were grossed out by my knee today...I don't care. Two new sections of drama started to spur up...those I have little care for. I found out I can start catching rides to school with Kara from now on...that made me freakin' exstatic.
I said once before...
"Everyone, it seems that the road just hit a million option split. Let's see if anyone takes the same path as me."
Seems like a random moment to bring that quote back, doesn't it? Not if you could see inside my head. I'm sick of staying around here and playing off people's pity, and thus being the reason they do stuff with me. No one ever really hangs out with me(with the exception of Rent), unless either it's a last resort, I impose, or something is going wrong in my life. I feel like with Rent I impose alot as well, leaving little situations that don't fit this description.
The games are done, it's time for me to not only live by my will, but to stop being such a burden to others. I don't expect that once we're away from school people will want to keep in touch with me. Certain people keep saying that they hope I stay nearby for atleast my first year of college, but I really feel they're just trying to be kind. I'm back to feeling like someone who people are only around when they must be, and in all honesty take shots at once they're gone.
The sadest part...I don't blame them,
Endi
P.S. I had applied to NYU this year expecting not to get in without an outstanding first year at OCC...I got in. Not only in, but in and financial aid covering all housing and food. I don't know if I'm ready. More and more keeps pushing me away, making me feel I need out. Today I found out that some of the people I thought understood me are actually annoyed by me...