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(im just thinking out loud right now, so it might be kinda boring/not make a lot of sense.)
I need to stop thinking about him, and find something else that i can focus on.
this isnt going anywhere, so i need to accept that and accept that im only his friend, and all i'll ever be is his friend.
things i can focus on instead:
-get more involved with ONE/(RED)
-focusing on my schoolwork more, especially getting my english grade up.
-stop procrastinating (that'll take up a lot of concentration)
-keep my room clean for more than 2 days.
-drive more.
-go out and meet new people/go to life-teen after church.
-work more than 2 days a week.
-earn more money for a car.
-keep in touch with my friends better than i have been lately.
-start a new book.
-read HP5 again, in preparation of the movie.
-arttttttttt.
-take more pictures. (this would be easier accomplished if my camera wasnt stillllll at best buy getting fixed)
soooooo there are my choices.
we'll just have to wait to see how this one goes down.
because see, this is what happens...i cant stop thinking about him alllll week, because he's right there in class and we talk and everything, and i love it, but it makes me sad at the same time. but its great, because at least hes there.
but then the weekend comes around, and i rarely see him, and sometimes dont even talk to him all weekend. and during this time, i try to get myself over him (like i am now). and most of the time, it starts to work, i convince myself that i need to move on and accept that we're only friends and that should be okay, because even his friendship means a lot to me.
sooo thats the weekend, but as soon as the schoolweek starts and i so much as see him, or he smiles at me or says hi...the whole weekend was a waste because i realize that im not over him...not even close.
sooo yeahhh...but maybe this time, since i made myself a list (lol) of things to do instead of thinking about him (im pathetic), it will be different.
we'll see.
blahhh, later.
I need to stop thinking about him, and find something else that i can focus on.
this isnt going anywhere, so i need to accept that and accept that im only his friend, and all i'll ever be is his friend.
things i can focus on instead:
-get more involved with ONE/(RED)
-focusing on my schoolwork more, especially getting my english grade up.
-stop procrastinating (that'll take up a lot of concentration)
-keep my room clean for more than 2 days.
-drive more.
-go out and meet new people/go to life-teen after church.
-work more than 2 days a week.
-earn more money for a car.
-keep in touch with my friends better than i have been lately.
-start a new book.
-read HP5 again, in preparation of the movie.
-arttttttttt.
-take more pictures. (this would be easier accomplished if my camera wasnt stillllll at best buy getting fixed)
soooooo there are my choices.
we'll just have to wait to see how this one goes down.
because see, this is what happens...i cant stop thinking about him alllll week, because he's right there in class and we talk and everything, and i love it, but it makes me sad at the same time. but its great, because at least hes there.
but then the weekend comes around, and i rarely see him, and sometimes dont even talk to him all weekend. and during this time, i try to get myself over him (like i am now). and most of the time, it starts to work, i convince myself that i need to move on and accept that we're only friends and that should be okay, because even his friendship means a lot to me.
sooo thats the weekend, but as soon as the schoolweek starts and i so much as see him, or he smiles at me or says hi...the whole weekend was a waste because i realize that im not over him...not even close.
sooo yeahhh...but maybe this time, since i made myself a list (lol) of things to do instead of thinking about him (im pathetic), it will be different.
we'll see.
blahhh, later.