Place your hand in mine, Ill leave when I wanna

[endlesslovex]

Honestly I've been quite a mess lately. I don't know how to explain what it is, or why it is happening yet everyone fails to believe me when I tell them that. There's been a lot of things that have lead to this downfall, and I think my ignoring them when they were here was what caused this breakdown. They all gained to be too much of a weight for me to deal with any longer. So I just gave up... on everything.

I've been a complete and total bitch to everyone lately. I'm sorry for that but still, leave me the fuck alone. Do not tell me how to live my life or what I "shold" be doing. I don't care about your opinions. I will make and learn from my own mistakes.

I'm scared shitless to put my heart out there again. I find myself getting scared and tensing up when I'm with Drew because I think to myself, well what if he does what everyone else has done. What if he just gets up and peaces out one day. What would I be left with then, a broken heart that was never fully healed to begin with. We are not together so do not get that impression, although sometimes thats how it seems. Which is another subject completely.

I've come to the conclusion that absolutely no one is perfect, but there are people perfect for us.
Think about it and comment your thoughts on it.

xoxo