Mourning
What an aweful day. My grandfather woke up up this morning, quarter to 5 am. My great-grandmother was in critical condition. Things went down, and I ended up at the hospital. I held her hand, kissed her forehead a multitude of times, and told her how much I loved her. She moved, a lot, and used a lot of energy to open her eyes and look at me. Even then, I could see her pulse dropping, a beat would slip off every hour or so. I stayed for a long time, watched the minister perform the final rights...then we went home. No sooner had we pulled in the driveway then dad ran out...great-grandma's vitals were falling, fast. I knew before then that she would not see the day out. It saddened me to hear that her one wish was to make it to Saturday, her 45th anniversary. We got grandma there via transport, and then....she died. She saw everyone that day, and everyone was there to tell her they loved her. After grandma got there, and held her hand (After my grandfather practically killed the doctor. He was an asshole, he just walked in "You know she's already gone, right? Might as well turn these off..." Grandpa would have ripped his hand off it he had dared to.) her pulse went erratic, and when it levelled back out, it had dropped from 58 to 24...and then, to 2. They said grandpa was yelling at her, telling her to breathe and stand up, that she could do it...but she was already dead. I handled it all right when dad called, I just went back to doing things. But when they got home, it hit me, and it hit me so hard. I cried, I sobbed on dad's shirt, and again countless times tonight. I called off work, I can't go to work like this. I am still crying, it hurts so much to have lost her. I only hope Jen can come down, i really need some support right now, because everyone else is so sad. She might not be able to, but I really, really need her here, or I don't know what I'll do. I love her so, and I really need someone to remind me of the good things, the things I smile for.
I love you so much, Jen, please remember that....
-Jeremy
I love you so much, Jen, please remember that....
-Jeremy