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So I figured I would make use of this thing again with the help of Alina's advice. I guess writing is an easier way to express my feelings then trying to say what's on my mind, so here I go.
Winter break just ended, it was not all that bad.
(Starting December 24, 2004)
On Christmas Eve I met up with Lisa and Jess for some fun times, I don't remember too much from that night though. We did go to the mansion in my time though and the gate was open so Lisa and I went in and walked around the path. It was absolutely gorgeous. Christmas day I slept pretty late as oppose to other Christmas years. Got up, opened presents with the family and then got ready to head over to my aunt's house. I got clothes, cd's, two books, make-up, etc etc). When I got home I changed and waited for Lisa to come and get me. Lisa, Jason, Edgar, Jess, Mike, and I went to the movies, we saw Darkness; horrible movie. I got dropped off sometime around one and probably went to sleep. Sunday from what I can recall I... well I don't remember actually. I think I hung out with Jason, Mike, and Edgar though while Lisa was at work. We had a sing along in my car.
I don't remember exact days anymore, but sometime during last week Scott went with me to Best Buy to look at digitals camera, we looked at the refrigerators and televisions as well. Afterward I showed him the lit up mansion in my town, I made him get out of the car in the cold. Then I dropped him off at home and went to pick up Matt. We went back to Scott's because I felt like throwing a snowball at him. That only led me getting knocked down into the snow... mean boys. hah. Stayed for awhile and then dropped Matt off and went home. Lisa and her crew left on Tuesday to stay in the Pocono's, lucky bunch. During the middle of the week a few people stopped by my house, Matt, Brett, Mike, and Anthony. Talked and then everyone left. Scott and I went to the mall and he bought "Napoleon Dynamite". We went back to his house and watched it, along with Ben. Friday was New Years Eve and I went to Liz's for her usual crazy parties. About 30 people showed up, beer pong, dance parties, count down, etc. Let's just say I didn't get any sleep till about 6:30am. I stayed with Mike for awhile, rough night. Ray got his car stuck in a ditch down the road on his way home, what a mess. Around 6:00AM both Danielle and I left to go home. FINALLY SLEEP! I slept till about 2:30PM on Saturday and it felt so good. I was lazy all day Saturday and at 10:00PM I went over Regina's and slept there. Her puppy Toby is adorable. We watched TV, talked, looked through her old year books, etc. Woke up around 11:00AM and watched "Bad Santa" and then I went home. Sunday was nothing at all and I didn't care. I thought I would go to bed early, but instead I got caught up in "Viva La Bam". Probably every night of last week I talked to Kevin online. He's a nice boy and he listens to me which is pretty cool.
Went back to school today, which was horrible. It's so boring and pointless to attend. Nothing really ever gets accomplished, but whatever.
Heard some disturbing news during 2nd period haha. Kevin's a naughty boy. Tim fixed up my project, thanks buddy! Alina wasn't there during lunch and I have so much to talk to her about. That's basically it, I'm done boring everyone with how my break went.
...now onto everything else
I'm starting that "I hate everyone" stage. I feel so alone most of the time and I let the littlest things get on my nerves. I'm probably the most paranoid person ever. Sometimes I wish I was more open with how I feel, but I find it so hard to talk about with others, even my closest friends. I'm stressed to the max. The worst part about what's going on with me is that I rehearse everything I want to say to a certain someone, but everytime I'm around them I get to shy to mention it. Even on the phone or online it's too hard. The last thing I want is to make things weird.
What I hate the most is feeling like in order to hang out with someone it has to be convenient for them or I just get blown off. As much as I say I hate this person, it's only a lie, but I think I'm done trying.
IM ME: aTearDropAway
Winter break just ended, it was not all that bad.
(Starting December 24, 2004)
On Christmas Eve I met up with Lisa and Jess for some fun times, I don't remember too much from that night though. We did go to the mansion in my time though and the gate was open so Lisa and I went in and walked around the path. It was absolutely gorgeous. Christmas day I slept pretty late as oppose to other Christmas years. Got up, opened presents with the family and then got ready to head over to my aunt's house. I got clothes, cd's, two books, make-up, etc etc). When I got home I changed and waited for Lisa to come and get me. Lisa, Jason, Edgar, Jess, Mike, and I went to the movies, we saw Darkness; horrible movie. I got dropped off sometime around one and probably went to sleep. Sunday from what I can recall I... well I don't remember actually. I think I hung out with Jason, Mike, and Edgar though while Lisa was at work. We had a sing along in my car.
I don't remember exact days anymore, but sometime during last week Scott went with me to Best Buy to look at digitals camera, we looked at the refrigerators and televisions as well. Afterward I showed him the lit up mansion in my town, I made him get out of the car in the cold. Then I dropped him off at home and went to pick up Matt. We went back to Scott's because I felt like throwing a snowball at him. That only led me getting knocked down into the snow... mean boys. hah. Stayed for awhile and then dropped Matt off and went home. Lisa and her crew left on Tuesday to stay in the Pocono's, lucky bunch. During the middle of the week a few people stopped by my house, Matt, Brett, Mike, and Anthony. Talked and then everyone left. Scott and I went to the mall and he bought "Napoleon Dynamite". We went back to his house and watched it, along with Ben. Friday was New Years Eve and I went to Liz's for her usual crazy parties. About 30 people showed up, beer pong, dance parties, count down, etc. Let's just say I didn't get any sleep till about 6:30am. I stayed with Mike for awhile, rough night. Ray got his car stuck in a ditch down the road on his way home, what a mess. Around 6:00AM both Danielle and I left to go home. FINALLY SLEEP! I slept till about 2:30PM on Saturday and it felt so good. I was lazy all day Saturday and at 10:00PM I went over Regina's and slept there. Her puppy Toby is adorable. We watched TV, talked, looked through her old year books, etc. Woke up around 11:00AM and watched "Bad Santa" and then I went home. Sunday was nothing at all and I didn't care. I thought I would go to bed early, but instead I got caught up in "Viva La Bam". Probably every night of last week I talked to Kevin online. He's a nice boy and he listens to me which is pretty cool.
Went back to school today, which was horrible. It's so boring and pointless to attend. Nothing really ever gets accomplished, but whatever.
Heard some disturbing news during 2nd period haha. Kevin's a naughty boy. Tim fixed up my project, thanks buddy! Alina wasn't there during lunch and I have so much to talk to her about. That's basically it, I'm done boring everyone with how my break went.
...now onto everything else
I'm starting that "I hate everyone" stage. I feel so alone most of the time and I let the littlest things get on my nerves. I'm probably the most paranoid person ever. Sometimes I wish I was more open with how I feel, but I find it so hard to talk about with others, even my closest friends. I'm stressed to the max. The worst part about what's going on with me is that I rehearse everything I want to say to a certain someone, but everytime I'm around them I get to shy to mention it. Even on the phone or online it's too hard. The last thing I want is to make things weird.
What I hate the most is feeling like in order to hang out with someone it has to be convenient for them or I just get blown off. As much as I say I hate this person, it's only a lie, but I think I'm done trying.
IM ME: aTearDropAway