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OMG... I saw HIM today in the hospital and of course I broke down crying... I love that kid so much it hurts that all I can do is just sit back and watch HIM suffer... I wish that I can be there to help HIM not feel the pain and not feel alone... It hurts that I can't see HIM till Saturday cause of stupid soccer... I feel bad for leaving Danie all by herself for the upteenth time... Oh and then Dallas wants to go out and Im over here making plans to go out while Marc is in the hospital room clueless to why hes even there... WTF!! Im so confused and hurt and I feel so helpless... Oh GOD what do I do? I keep listening to our song over and over again trying to numb the pain but its not helping... WTF its making it worse...