new update..been too long
so quick update on current life statusish
*jv guard started show is Mucheal Buble - save the last dance for me( kinda cool, although its getting kind of boring) preview night was last night and the varsity guard did an awesome job, i love their show to death and wish that i could be in it!!
**went to snow camp at circle c and got saved and have become so much of a better person and more religious, i joined a 30 hour fast, im helping give money to a kid from south asia, im doing monday night bible studies, and trying to keep up with devotionals.
**i still havent figured out who i exactly am yet but im almost there, i dont think that i will ever truly know exactly who i am just little bits and pieces of understanding
**talking to my wacky granma-only if forced, i still havent even talked to my aunt , and oh btw my uncle (who has chelsers) new gf who has 2 kids is fucking pregnant, i am so confused on how to feel about this kid because it is still my uncles child but chelsea will always be number one in my heart, i mean this bitch of a girlfriend has tried to get him away from all his family and because my mom started the rumour she was pregnant she wouldnt elet her in my UNCLES HOUSE to get water for the office....UGHH we all knew she was and had bets on how fat she could get ,,, stupid bitch. So how am i supposed to respond to this kid?? i have no clue *therapists come in handy*
** just found out my moms heart has been bothering her again she used tohave something wrong i think a murmur and cant have caffeine so she had dsurggery and it was find but since shes been out drinking sooo much lately she has been getting chest pains again and dizzy. I mean why cant she jsut listen to me , im not trying to tell her not to go out and have fun everynow and then but every weekend sometimes more? come on...
** started going to this cardio kickboxing class with my mom and wow..its definetely a workout, i love it, maybe i will be able to stay in shape and lose some weight!! that would be awesome,considering our guard uniforms require you to be skinny or look incredibly huge...ME...
** definetely getting a corset piercing on my back no matter what my mom says it is what i want, and i think its hot.
**got my report card and i have a 65 in gym everything else went up though and my overall avg. went up a point so i have to work on chem and english and hopefully next semester i can get on honors....
** irish dance is on monday nights just thought about that maybe i wont be able to do bible study...arghh
**i really miss jan and i never get to see ehr caus she lives all the way out near like niagra falls....and its been a year almost since we have hung out ....i hate it.
** im starting to really miss rachel a lot we werent best friends but like the month before she left we bacame really close and its just starting to affect me.. and ali is leaving on a cruise(lucky) for i think like 1 week and 1/2 so ill miss her too!
** me and sticki havent really talked in a while and i am missing our talks, did i do something wrong? or is this just our break thingys we have because if its a break thingy then ok caus those are what keeps our friendship up
** me and mel i think are friends again, well we are duh,but im glad i didnt ruin that, i can be so immature at times,
** i miss my grandma a lot and have been crying almost every other day about her (R>I>P) and my dreams are mostly of her.. i miss her sooo much i need to talk about it more but ive dried everyone out that i normally talk to ...
** Me and bailey have become closer since snow camp and i am soo glad for that she is an awesome friend and im glad that we are friends
** im going to get over my fear of d. voss and stay after and get some help that i need immensely in chem. caus yeah...
**im stressed out to the max but i keep adding things to my plate...! i mean i want it doesnt seem like i do alot but i really do and it so exhilerating,aya.
--alright thats my rant for today, i will try to update mor often next time--
♥
*jv guard started show is Mucheal Buble - save the last dance for me( kinda cool, although its getting kind of boring) preview night was last night and the varsity guard did an awesome job, i love their show to death and wish that i could be in it!!
**went to snow camp at circle c and got saved and have become so much of a better person and more religious, i joined a 30 hour fast, im helping give money to a kid from south asia, im doing monday night bible studies, and trying to keep up with devotionals.
**i still havent figured out who i exactly am yet but im almost there, i dont think that i will ever truly know exactly who i am just little bits and pieces of understanding
**talking to my wacky granma-only if forced, i still havent even talked to my aunt , and oh btw my uncle (who has chelsers) new gf who has 2 kids is fucking pregnant, i am so confused on how to feel about this kid because it is still my uncles child but chelsea will always be number one in my heart, i mean this bitch of a girlfriend has tried to get him away from all his family and because my mom started the rumour she was pregnant she wouldnt elet her in my UNCLES HOUSE to get water for the office....UGHH we all knew she was and had bets on how fat she could get ,,, stupid bitch. So how am i supposed to respond to this kid?? i have no clue *therapists come in handy*
** just found out my moms heart has been bothering her again she used tohave something wrong i think a murmur and cant have caffeine so she had dsurggery and it was find but since shes been out drinking sooo much lately she has been getting chest pains again and dizzy. I mean why cant she jsut listen to me , im not trying to tell her not to go out and have fun everynow and then but every weekend sometimes more? come on...
** started going to this cardio kickboxing class with my mom and wow..its definetely a workout, i love it, maybe i will be able to stay in shape and lose some weight!! that would be awesome,considering our guard uniforms require you to be skinny or look incredibly huge...ME...
** definetely getting a corset piercing on my back no matter what my mom says it is what i want, and i think its hot.
**got my report card and i have a 65 in gym everything else went up though and my overall avg. went up a point so i have to work on chem and english and hopefully next semester i can get on honors....
** irish dance is on monday nights just thought about that maybe i wont be able to do bible study...arghh
**i really miss jan and i never get to see ehr caus she lives all the way out near like niagra falls....and its been a year almost since we have hung out ....i hate it.
** im starting to really miss rachel a lot we werent best friends but like the month before she left we bacame really close and its just starting to affect me.. and ali is leaving on a cruise(lucky) for i think like 1 week and 1/2 so ill miss her too!
** me and sticki havent really talked in a while and i am missing our talks, did i do something wrong? or is this just our break thingys we have because if its a break thingy then ok caus those are what keeps our friendship up
** me and mel i think are friends again, well we are duh,but im glad i didnt ruin that, i can be so immature at times,
** i miss my grandma a lot and have been crying almost every other day about her (R>I>P) and my dreams are mostly of her.. i miss her sooo much i need to talk about it more but ive dried everyone out that i normally talk to ...
** Me and bailey have become closer since snow camp and i am soo glad for that she is an awesome friend and im glad that we are friends
** im going to get over my fear of d. voss and stay after and get some help that i need immensely in chem. caus yeah...
**im stressed out to the max but i keep adding things to my plate...! i mean i want it doesnt seem like i do alot but i really do and it so exhilerating,aya.
--alright thats my rant for today, i will try to update mor often next time--
♥