I havent updated in so long the form has changed.
Its like my suitemates are psychic..everytime i think about getting into the shower, one of them does. My room is simply a magnet for dust, I can clean it and a day later, it will be back, and worse.
Bill is trying to buy a townhouse up here for me to live in and rent out next year. there arent that many choices though. most of the current leases dont run out until july or august and we want it by the end of april so i have a place to put all my shit for the summer and not have to cram it into my room back home.
I have things to do, i just lack the motivation to get them done. i have a speech due on monday that im not even through researching, and im already bored with it myself. theres just too much to say and i cant decide whats important.
i finally had that tallahasse sex that everyone raves about. that sex you have in college. and it really wasnt special at all, and things didnt go very well, and i just have one more bad hook up to avoid. thats how things work, you get a bit intoxicated and make out or hook up or whatever with who ever and spend the next few days trying to avoid them because it just ended up being weird when they left your bed the next morning.
i think the worst was when my roommates alarm went off at 8 am one morning and the kid actually got up and turned it off. id say that i want a real boy, but i dont know that i would have time. i kill too much time as it is doing meaningless things, like this. its 120am and i have to get up at 930. and i still have tons of things to do. i just continue to find other things to do to put them off. and i pay to do this homework. i dont get it.
i wish i knew what i wanted to do with my life, i have no idea. bill wants me to go into law. but those who know me know that i dont like conflict at all, so why would i go into a profession where there is nothing but confrontation.
i need a new picture, i just found this one on my camera from back in september. its when we were all at the fountain, it was ariana's birthday and we threw her in and then most of us ended up getting. it was fun. back then, everyone hung out with everyone. i think we were all trying to find those people that we felt like we belonged with. i still feel like there is no one here that completely relates to me. but then i stop and ask myself if i ever knew anyone that completely related to me. in every friendship that i have had, there has always been something missing. theres this feeling that i get where i feel like im not the best friend that they have, that there is always someone else better, someone that they feel they relate to more than me. maybe its all in my head. thats how i feel with some people here. there are 5 of us that hang out alot. and it just seems that the rest of them are alot closer with each other than i am with any of them. perhaps this is another thing that is all in my head. ive started trying not to think about it, because chances are its me analyzing things entirely too much like i always do.
my main concern right now is finding a place to live, im meeting with the realtor tomorrow to look at a place. im also concerned with finding a roommate. i have no fucking clue who i am going to live with. this kid that i dont talk to that much at all said that he was looking for a place to live next year today. we just happened to be walking back at the same time. i dont know, it might be weird to live with a guy that i dont know that well. who knows what will happen. i know that my suitemate is out of the shower now and its my turn.
Bill is trying to buy a townhouse up here for me to live in and rent out next year. there arent that many choices though. most of the current leases dont run out until july or august and we want it by the end of april so i have a place to put all my shit for the summer and not have to cram it into my room back home.
I have things to do, i just lack the motivation to get them done. i have a speech due on monday that im not even through researching, and im already bored with it myself. theres just too much to say and i cant decide whats important.
i finally had that tallahasse sex that everyone raves about. that sex you have in college. and it really wasnt special at all, and things didnt go very well, and i just have one more bad hook up to avoid. thats how things work, you get a bit intoxicated and make out or hook up or whatever with who ever and spend the next few days trying to avoid them because it just ended up being weird when they left your bed the next morning.
i think the worst was when my roommates alarm went off at 8 am one morning and the kid actually got up and turned it off. id say that i want a real boy, but i dont know that i would have time. i kill too much time as it is doing meaningless things, like this. its 120am and i have to get up at 930. and i still have tons of things to do. i just continue to find other things to do to put them off. and i pay to do this homework. i dont get it.
i wish i knew what i wanted to do with my life, i have no idea. bill wants me to go into law. but those who know me know that i dont like conflict at all, so why would i go into a profession where there is nothing but confrontation.
i need a new picture, i just found this one on my camera from back in september. its when we were all at the fountain, it was ariana's birthday and we threw her in and then most of us ended up getting. it was fun. back then, everyone hung out with everyone. i think we were all trying to find those people that we felt like we belonged with. i still feel like there is no one here that completely relates to me. but then i stop and ask myself if i ever knew anyone that completely related to me. in every friendship that i have had, there has always been something missing. theres this feeling that i get where i feel like im not the best friend that they have, that there is always someone else better, someone that they feel they relate to more than me. maybe its all in my head. thats how i feel with some people here. there are 5 of us that hang out alot. and it just seems that the rest of them are alot closer with each other than i am with any of them. perhaps this is another thing that is all in my head. ive started trying not to think about it, because chances are its me analyzing things entirely too much like i always do.
my main concern right now is finding a place to live, im meeting with the realtor tomorrow to look at a place. im also concerned with finding a roommate. i have no fucking clue who i am going to live with. this kid that i dont talk to that much at all said that he was looking for a place to live next year today. we just happened to be walking back at the same time. i dont know, it might be weird to live with a guy that i dont know that well. who knows what will happen. i know that my suitemate is out of the shower now and its my turn.