How bad should I hurt, how much is enough?
You may think it bothers me. It may a little. Someone would have to be superman to not be a little hurt. But, I'm slowly and surely getting to that super hero status. And I have you to thank.
This isn't the first time. Of course it isn't. I've been called fat many times. I used to try to ignore it, even though it bothered me inside, hurt my feelings. But, it's come to the point where, it doesn't bother me anymore, I'm just sick of hearing it. I mean, seriously, can you try to be a little more creative than that?
"'Fat' is usually the first insult a girl throws at another girl when she wants to hurt her, I could remember it happening when I was at school, and witnessing it among the teenagers I used to teach. The bemusement at this everyday feature of female existence reminded me how strange and sick the 'fat' insult is. I mean, is 'fat' really the worst thing a human being can be? Is 'fat' worsethan 'vindictive', 'jealous', 'shallow', 'vain', 'boring' or 'cruel'?"
That is a quote from J.K. Rowling's official website. I stumbled upon it today while I was internet surfing about her. Since I finished the book, i felt a Harry Potter withdrawal and read about the author instead. It was a coincidence since I had JUST been insulted in this way 3 days ago.
I'm sure I've been made fun of by a lot of people, but three people, girls, in particular stand out to me right now. And what's funny is they ALL posted it online. Let me repeat, they ALL decided to insult me on the internet with the same default insult about my weight. Sure, they all had their different variations and their differnt means of posting it: livejournal, AIM profiles, and myspace bulletins. But ultimatley, they were saying the same thing.
I already said it bothered and hurt me, but at this point, the only reason it bothers me is because of the pettyness of it all. I mean, thats the best they can think of? they want to talk down about me because of the way I look? because I'm fat? What about the kind of person I am. To me, it's worse that they stoooped to that level and used that against me. I;m not saying I'm skinny, but just because it's there, its their easiest target, and that is just downright stupid. I happen to have a boyfriend who loves me for who I am. I hate to break it to you but its true what they say. Not ALL men want skinny women. My family, friends, and boyfriend happen to think I'm a beatiful person, and thank you very much, that's all that matters to me. I'm healthy, and that's also all that matters to me.
So be stupid, and call me fat, because you have nothing better to do than bring me down. But, as far as I can see, I'd rather be fat and myself, then be someone like you three girls who degrades other people for no other reason than because of their weight.
Bring me down me because I'm a bad PERSON, but please don't bring me down because I don't have a "hot" body.
It took guts writing this. But in the end, this is my way of saying I'm happy with who I am. This no longer bothers me. It may bug me, but I'm over this. You want to be immature, than fine. I'll pray for you because that's all I can do. So, thank you. You've ultimatley built my personality and have made me stronger. But, I love me. And it's gonna take a lot more that calling me fat to bring me down.
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on a brighter note: I got my nails done with yellow tips! =]
This isn't the first time. Of course it isn't. I've been called fat many times. I used to try to ignore it, even though it bothered me inside, hurt my feelings. But, it's come to the point where, it doesn't bother me anymore, I'm just sick of hearing it. I mean, seriously, can you try to be a little more creative than that?
"'Fat' is usually the first insult a girl throws at another girl when she wants to hurt her, I could remember it happening when I was at school, and witnessing it among the teenagers I used to teach. The bemusement at this everyday feature of female existence reminded me how strange and sick the 'fat' insult is. I mean, is 'fat' really the worst thing a human being can be? Is 'fat' worsethan 'vindictive', 'jealous', 'shallow', 'vain', 'boring' or 'cruel'?"
That is a quote from J.K. Rowling's official website. I stumbled upon it today while I was internet surfing about her. Since I finished the book, i felt a Harry Potter withdrawal and read about the author instead. It was a coincidence since I had JUST been insulted in this way 3 days ago.
I'm sure I've been made fun of by a lot of people, but three people, girls, in particular stand out to me right now. And what's funny is they ALL posted it online. Let me repeat, they ALL decided to insult me on the internet with the same default insult about my weight. Sure, they all had their different variations and their differnt means of posting it: livejournal, AIM profiles, and myspace bulletins. But ultimatley, they were saying the same thing.
I already said it bothered and hurt me, but at this point, the only reason it bothers me is because of the pettyness of it all. I mean, thats the best they can think of? they want to talk down about me because of the way I look? because I'm fat? What about the kind of person I am. To me, it's worse that they stoooped to that level and used that against me. I;m not saying I'm skinny, but just because it's there, its their easiest target, and that is just downright stupid. I happen to have a boyfriend who loves me for who I am. I hate to break it to you but its true what they say. Not ALL men want skinny women. My family, friends, and boyfriend happen to think I'm a beatiful person, and thank you very much, that's all that matters to me. I'm healthy, and that's also all that matters to me.
So be stupid, and call me fat, because you have nothing better to do than bring me down. But, as far as I can see, I'd rather be fat and myself, then be someone like you three girls who degrades other people for no other reason than because of their weight.
Bring me down me because I'm a bad PERSON, but please don't bring me down because I don't have a "hot" body.
It took guts writing this. But in the end, this is my way of saying I'm happy with who I am. This no longer bothers me. It may bug me, but I'm over this. You want to be immature, than fine. I'll pray for you because that's all I can do. So, thank you. You've ultimatley built my personality and have made me stronger. But, I love me. And it's gonna take a lot more that calling me fat to bring me down.
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on a brighter note: I got my nails done with yellow tips! =]