Car Rides and Growing Up.
Weird subject, but it totally sums up my thoughts for the past day or whatever.
When I was a baby, my parents used to always drive me around in the car a while to put me to sleep. When I was a baby, car rides were relaxing. Then you got older, toddler stage, and car rides were adventerous. You know, drvining to Disneyland or Las Vegas. Going with a whole bunch of family and seeing who can stay up the whole trip. They were fun. Then, now. You go on car rides. And if you're not sleeping, all you do in car rides is think. Looking out the window in the back seat, or even if you're the one driving. You do a whole lot of thinking. And I guess it really goes to show how growing up stresses you out. Now, car rides are at times, depressing.
Today in the car ride to dinner with my parents, I got to do a whole lot of thinking about the past few days. Ups, mostly downs.. but overall, nothing I don think I cant handle. I've been able to get through harder shit. But sooner or later, hopefully later, I'm bound to break. I hope it doesnt get to that point.
There's only so much I can "get through"
The upsides? I can officially go to Jr. Prom. =) And me and my parents were talking about my 18th birthday. And instead of having a full blown cotillion like my sisters, even though i HELLA wanted one, I;m going to the phlippines with the cousins....AND JAMES! yayyyy. Rockwell 2 here we come! I;m hella excited though. That's like, the BEST ever.
I deno, I can invite friends too, but i have to see who my REAL friends are before i go inviting people.
Anyway, it's Ash Wednesday on wednesday, and then Lent. Hopefully my commitment to my faith in the next 40 + days will strengthen it and give me better days.
That's all lovelies.
When I was a baby, my parents used to always drive me around in the car a while to put me to sleep. When I was a baby, car rides were relaxing. Then you got older, toddler stage, and car rides were adventerous. You know, drvining to Disneyland or Las Vegas. Going with a whole bunch of family and seeing who can stay up the whole trip. They were fun. Then, now. You go on car rides. And if you're not sleeping, all you do in car rides is think. Looking out the window in the back seat, or even if you're the one driving. You do a whole lot of thinking. And I guess it really goes to show how growing up stresses you out. Now, car rides are at times, depressing.
Today in the car ride to dinner with my parents, I got to do a whole lot of thinking about the past few days. Ups, mostly downs.. but overall, nothing I don think I cant handle. I've been able to get through harder shit. But sooner or later, hopefully later, I'm bound to break. I hope it doesnt get to that point.
There's only so much I can "get through"
The upsides? I can officially go to Jr. Prom. =) And me and my parents were talking about my 18th birthday. And instead of having a full blown cotillion like my sisters, even though i HELLA wanted one, I;m going to the phlippines with the cousins....AND JAMES! yayyyy. Rockwell 2 here we come! I;m hella excited though. That's like, the BEST ever.
I deno, I can invite friends too, but i have to see who my REAL friends are before i go inviting people.
Anyway, it's Ash Wednesday on wednesday, and then Lent. Hopefully my commitment to my faith in the next 40 + days will strengthen it and give me better days.
That's all lovelies.