2 weeks after...
So, tomorrow its going to be 2 weeks since i've been diagnosed with Borderline.
Lots of things has happend in the mean time.Lots of good things actually.I had to let it sink in a couple of days, talked pretty lot with R on the phone, he let me ramble on about stuff I never talked about out loud to someone and it felt good. Sure, he doesn't understand everything, he doesn't get why I cut myself, why I just can't push a button in my head and think positive about life, about me. But I think it's great that he listnens to me talking bullshit (because, lets face it, I do).
Anyway, About my therapy...I now have my own treatment guy (have no idea how that called in english lolz).I met him last week and it so totally clicked between us! I will see him every week, talk about me, about things that I can do, Thing I did etc etc...When I totally trust him and show him that I really want to change things, try to controle my dissease, they put in training.Don't know the specifikes yet but it's gonna take long before I'm ready anyway...On 5 march I see another psychiatrist
who is probably gonna give me meds to deal with my moodswings etc.But I'm glad that its going good now.I have faith in it.
Another thing, I was a blond girl, now I have black hair xD
I think its soo cool haha...I had a lot of compliments from other people so I think I'm going to keep it anyway! :) Have no idea how to post a pic here so you just have to imagine me with it :p
Lots of things has happend in the mean time.Lots of good things actually.I had to let it sink in a couple of days, talked pretty lot with R on the phone, he let me ramble on about stuff I never talked about out loud to someone and it felt good. Sure, he doesn't understand everything, he doesn't get why I cut myself, why I just can't push a button in my head and think positive about life, about me. But I think it's great that he listnens to me talking bullshit (because, lets face it, I do).
Anyway, About my therapy...I now have my own treatment guy (have no idea how that called in english lolz).I met him last week and it so totally clicked between us! I will see him every week, talk about me, about things that I can do, Thing I did etc etc...When I totally trust him and show him that I really want to change things, try to controle my dissease, they put in training.Don't know the specifikes yet but it's gonna take long before I'm ready anyway...On 5 march I see another psychiatrist
who is probably gonna give me meds to deal with my moodswings etc.But I'm glad that its going good now.I have faith in it.
Another thing, I was a blond girl, now I have black hair xD
I think its soo cool haha...I had a lot of compliments from other people so I think I'm going to keep it anyway! :) Have no idea how to post a pic here so you just have to imagine me with it :p