Hmm..
Monday I'm going to hear the official diagnose... They're going to tell me what's "wrong" with me, going to tell me If I do infact have Borderline or something...Or...nothing..
When I was writing in my "diary" (just a notebook where I write in personal stuff, feelings, how many pills I took that day, if I eat well yada yada yada) last week i kinda realized that whatever they are going to tell me Monday, I wont be happy either way.
If I really have borderline then I have to deal with it, actually go into heavy therapie etc etc but if they are going to tell me that it's just all in my head, that there is nothing wrong with me I think im going to freak out anyway...
So i'm kinda stressing about that atm :S
I turned 23 btw, but dindt feel anything with it...can't feel much at all atm...Stil!
And to be honest, it drives me crazy.
Got a lot of text messages that day btw and that felt great =)
I really got a lot of great friends...
When I was writing in my "diary" (just a notebook where I write in personal stuff, feelings, how many pills I took that day, if I eat well yada yada yada) last week i kinda realized that whatever they are going to tell me Monday, I wont be happy either way.
If I really have borderline then I have to deal with it, actually go into heavy therapie etc etc but if they are going to tell me that it's just all in my head, that there is nothing wrong with me I think im going to freak out anyway...
So i'm kinda stressing about that atm :S
I turned 23 btw, but dindt feel anything with it...can't feel much at all atm...Stil!
And to be honest, it drives me crazy.
Got a lot of text messages that day btw and that felt great =)
I really got a lot of great friends...