The boy
I think me and vinney may just be too much alike to be together.
#1: were both insecure. we both think eachother have different people on the side. maybe we both do?
example:
---: go paint
---: go turn the radio on and mute cartoonson tv
---: draw a maze
Alysia4848: but im in the middle of several conversations, including this one at the moment
---: psh
---: me and your other guy...
---: dwayne
Alysia4848: yup
---: ..
Alysia4848: you know him?
---: funny
---: i think
---: i
---: will do something dangerous
---: today
Alysia4848: why
---: life threatening
---: because
---: thats probably what i would do if i were bored
---: i am going to rob bank
Alysia4848: well, id talk to dwayne
Alysia4848: if i were bored
---: and chris
Alysia4848: and nick
---: and rico
---: and steven
Alysia4848: and steven
Alysia4848: good idea
---: hm
---: maybe i'll just leave
---: flee
---: my id came and i think i wanna go
---: out west
---: just go
Alysia4848: and leave me....here?
---: dont worry, you'll still have dwayne
Alysia4848: oh yeah
---: well
Alysia4848: shut up
---: why shut up
Alysia4848: about dwayne
Alysia4848: i dont know a single person named dwayne
---: oh but everyone else
---: you got everyone else then
---: u dont need me
Alysia4848: theres no rico eihter
Alysia4848: see, i do need you
---: what about nick steve and whoever
---: chris
Alysia4848: ...i do know people named nick and steven and chris
Alysia4848: but what does that mean
Alysia4848: nothing
---: ...
Alysia4848: why are you trying to start an argument
Alysia4848: how about ashy
---: psh
---: give me a break
---: if there were anyone else in my life right now
---: ....she
---: -HAahaha i cant even finish
---: that sentence
---: jesus
Alysia4848: she what
---: she would be nowhere
---: in my mind
---: frame
---: shes the farthest thing from
---: my ....fuckin
---: wants
Alysia4848: and if you had nobody, she would be in your mind frame?
---: yeah right
---: fuck that stupid whore
---: i despise the shit out of her
Alysia4848: uh huh
---: everytime she says "i love you' on my voicemail
---: i want to gag
---: i think to myself
---: what the fuck is wrong with this bitch
---: - i have never once said anything to her that would....
---: imply
---: that i care
---: she is a psychotic
---: bsessive
---: deranged
---: junkie
---: emo
---: skitzo
---: demon
---: fiend
---: ghoul
---: so please dont attribute her to me
---: there is nothing...
---: there
---: no link
---: i saved her number so i know to only ignore that one
---: nothing less i promise
---: sweetheart' believe me
---: anyhows
---: who wants ice cream!?
---: or not
Alysia4848: nah
---: nvm i'll let you finish up with rico
Another thing...since when is he 'my man', because i just assume thats what he was implying by saying that rico was my 'other man'
And he bitched about me going into the GAS STATION the other day. the gas station i ALWAYS go to to get cigarettes, so what that eddy and louie both love me and flirt with me. he says oh gotta stop and flirt with your man some more on the way. that was the first time i flipped out on him im like "NO ACTUALLY I NEED GAS DO YOU REALLY WANT ME TO GO TO THE OTHER FUCKING GAS STATION JUST BECAUSE YOU DONT WANT EDDY FLIRTING WITH ME?" jesus fucking christ
and its NOT...I repeat NOT my fault that he found all the other phone numbers. I've never called him my boyfriend or implied we were dating...we both intruduce eachother as friends, how was I supposed to know thats not all we were. He wouldnt have hurt himself if he didnt go snooping.
I left, and came home and my room was cleaned. and i know he went through everything. i know he found wes' number, he left it on the dresser for me.
hes jealous enough to go through my shit?
oh well who am i to talk im jsut as bad in jealous enough i check his voicemails before him and he doesnt even know i know his password.
I hate how we're treating eachother right now. And he is getting alittle more serious and i dont know if im ready for all that....Alysia doesnt do boyfriends, why should i, i dont Need one, what good would it do?
I also have started to get homesick. Ive never felt like that before, i could be gone all the time and i dont care, but lately...at night, i just wanna be at home sleeping in my own bed. and it sucks.
we stayed the weekend and his grandparents last weekend cuz they're on vacation...and yeah, it should have been fun, but it just wasnt that great to me, i seriously felt like i was fucking married or something. stuck. I made dinner, we went to bed ..blah blah blah, we wake up, i made breakfast, we took a shower, we watched some movies, did some running around, we laid around.....and all that, we went back to bed. I was with him 24 hours a day, i didnt even shower alone! i mean fuck, sometimes i just need a minute to myself you know. i dunno i cannot control my need to babble and babble so i'll stop now, hes gonna be here soon anyways and i need to do the dishes and take a shower
i miss everyone, ive lost contact with everyone im depressed. im lonely. im frustrated.
#1: were both insecure. we both think eachother have different people on the side. maybe we both do?
example:
---: go paint
---: go turn the radio on and mute cartoonson tv
---: draw a maze
Alysia4848: but im in the middle of several conversations, including this one at the moment
---: psh
---: me and your other guy...
---: dwayne
Alysia4848: yup
---: ..
Alysia4848: you know him?
---: funny
---: i think
---: i
---: will do something dangerous
---: today
Alysia4848: why
---: life threatening
---: because
---: thats probably what i would do if i were bored
---: i am going to rob bank
Alysia4848: well, id talk to dwayne
Alysia4848: if i were bored
---: and chris
Alysia4848: and nick
---: and rico
---: and steven
Alysia4848: and steven
Alysia4848: good idea
---: hm
---: maybe i'll just leave
---: flee
---: my id came and i think i wanna go
---: out west
---: just go
Alysia4848: and leave me....here?
---: dont worry, you'll still have dwayne
Alysia4848: oh yeah
---: well
Alysia4848: shut up
---: why shut up
Alysia4848: about dwayne
Alysia4848: i dont know a single person named dwayne
---: oh but everyone else
---: you got everyone else then
---: u dont need me
Alysia4848: theres no rico eihter
Alysia4848: see, i do need you
---: what about nick steve and whoever
---: chris
Alysia4848: ...i do know people named nick and steven and chris
Alysia4848: but what does that mean
Alysia4848: nothing
---: ...
Alysia4848: why are you trying to start an argument
Alysia4848: how about ashy
---: psh
---: give me a break
---: if there were anyone else in my life right now
---: ....she
---: -HAahaha i cant even finish
---: that sentence
---: jesus
Alysia4848: she what
---: she would be nowhere
---: in my mind
---: frame
---: shes the farthest thing from
---: my ....fuckin
---: wants
Alysia4848: and if you had nobody, she would be in your mind frame?
---: yeah right
---: fuck that stupid whore
---: i despise the shit out of her
Alysia4848: uh huh
---: everytime she says "i love you' on my voicemail
---: i want to gag
---: i think to myself
---: what the fuck is wrong with this bitch
---: - i have never once said anything to her that would....
---: imply
---: that i care
---: she is a psychotic
---: bsessive
---: deranged
---: junkie
---: emo
---: skitzo
---: demon
---: fiend
---: ghoul
---: so please dont attribute her to me
---: there is nothing...
---: there
---: no link
---: i saved her number so i know to only ignore that one
---: nothing less i promise
---: sweetheart' believe me
---: anyhows
---: who wants ice cream!?
---: or not
Alysia4848: nah
---: nvm i'll let you finish up with rico
Another thing...since when is he 'my man', because i just assume thats what he was implying by saying that rico was my 'other man'
And he bitched about me going into the GAS STATION the other day. the gas station i ALWAYS go to to get cigarettes, so what that eddy and louie both love me and flirt with me. he says oh gotta stop and flirt with your man some more on the way. that was the first time i flipped out on him im like "NO ACTUALLY I NEED GAS DO YOU REALLY WANT ME TO GO TO THE OTHER FUCKING GAS STATION JUST BECAUSE YOU DONT WANT EDDY FLIRTING WITH ME?" jesus fucking christ
and its NOT...I repeat NOT my fault that he found all the other phone numbers. I've never called him my boyfriend or implied we were dating...we both intruduce eachother as friends, how was I supposed to know thats not all we were. He wouldnt have hurt himself if he didnt go snooping.
I left, and came home and my room was cleaned. and i know he went through everything. i know he found wes' number, he left it on the dresser for me.
hes jealous enough to go through my shit?
oh well who am i to talk im jsut as bad in jealous enough i check his voicemails before him and he doesnt even know i know his password.
I hate how we're treating eachother right now. And he is getting alittle more serious and i dont know if im ready for all that....Alysia doesnt do boyfriends, why should i, i dont Need one, what good would it do?
I also have started to get homesick. Ive never felt like that before, i could be gone all the time and i dont care, but lately...at night, i just wanna be at home sleeping in my own bed. and it sucks.
we stayed the weekend and his grandparents last weekend cuz they're on vacation...and yeah, it should have been fun, but it just wasnt that great to me, i seriously felt like i was fucking married or something. stuck. I made dinner, we went to bed ..blah blah blah, we wake up, i made breakfast, we took a shower, we watched some movies, did some running around, we laid around.....and all that, we went back to bed. I was with him 24 hours a day, i didnt even shower alone! i mean fuck, sometimes i just need a minute to myself you know. i dunno i cannot control my need to babble and babble so i'll stop now, hes gonna be here soon anyways and i need to do the dishes and take a shower
i miss everyone, ive lost contact with everyone im depressed. im lonely. im frustrated.