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Well I went out last night.....we went out drinkin, then I decided i needed sleep so I found my way to michaels house and passed out on their couch...they come home and julies like "ALYSIA!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!" and i jump up still half drunk im like "uh sorry guys i needed to sleep on your couch...even tho you werent home" lol so julies like "get up we're going to my freinds hosue to drink" ............so we started again.
Then I call wes because he was supposed to go to the bar with his friend at 10, it was her bday and he said he wasnt gonna stay long, but i guess plans changed. I called at 12:30 and he said he'd call me back in a little bit cuz he was still there, then at 1:30 he called and i couldnt understand him at all.... So like an hour later I tried to call him back...but he turned his phone off...
OK, a sign you're getting alittle attached. He turns his phone off for a couple hours (after 2 am so good posibility it could have been just to sleep) and you start flippin out. Cuz he NEVER turns his phone off at night, i call him and wake him up all the time. The only time he turns off his phone is when i stay the night. So this brings on the drunken thoughts of "what the fuck, hes got a girl over sleepin with him, thats why he turned of his phone, what a bastard" and im kinda getting pissed you know. Which I should NOT be...because i'm not a jealous person, I guess I just like him too much. I shouldn't be pissed at all cuz we're not even using the bf gf labels and I never told him he couldnt have other girls over. Besides that i have no fucking room to talk at all...I stayed the night at Brads house thursday and told im i was going out wiht some friends.
So I guess the only thing i can be some-what mad about is that I know he was drinking and he told me he wasn't going to. But that part I dont really care about, since i do that all the time. I just wish I could have been there to know what was going on.
I know, Im being a selfish selfish person right now. I should be grateful for the fact we talk for like 10 out of 24 hours a day and he pretty much checks in with me every hour or two. But no, it just seems to make it worse when I can't get ahold of him.
I'm not even happy with myself for being mad. Hopefully he doenst sense any of it cuz that's just not how I wanna home off...as a jealous bitch. ...blah today sucks already its not even 9am i didnt stop drinking till 2 i should go sleep but i cant i got shit to do today.
Happy Birthday LAURA
Then I call wes because he was supposed to go to the bar with his friend at 10, it was her bday and he said he wasnt gonna stay long, but i guess plans changed. I called at 12:30 and he said he'd call me back in a little bit cuz he was still there, then at 1:30 he called and i couldnt understand him at all.... So like an hour later I tried to call him back...but he turned his phone off...
OK, a sign you're getting alittle attached. He turns his phone off for a couple hours (after 2 am so good posibility it could have been just to sleep) and you start flippin out. Cuz he NEVER turns his phone off at night, i call him and wake him up all the time. The only time he turns off his phone is when i stay the night. So this brings on the drunken thoughts of "what the fuck, hes got a girl over sleepin with him, thats why he turned of his phone, what a bastard" and im kinda getting pissed you know. Which I should NOT be...because i'm not a jealous person, I guess I just like him too much. I shouldn't be pissed at all cuz we're not even using the bf gf labels and I never told him he couldnt have other girls over. Besides that i have no fucking room to talk at all...I stayed the night at Brads house thursday and told im i was going out wiht some friends.
So I guess the only thing i can be some-what mad about is that I know he was drinking and he told me he wasn't going to. But that part I dont really care about, since i do that all the time. I just wish I could have been there to know what was going on.
I know, Im being a selfish selfish person right now. I should be grateful for the fact we talk for like 10 out of 24 hours a day and he pretty much checks in with me every hour or two. But no, it just seems to make it worse when I can't get ahold of him.
I'm not even happy with myself for being mad. Hopefully he doenst sense any of it cuz that's just not how I wanna home off...as a jealous bitch. ...blah today sucks already its not even 9am i didnt stop drinking till 2 i should go sleep but i cant i got shit to do today.
Happy Birthday LAURA