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This summer has brought to me both some of the best and some of the worst times of my life. I dont know why i seek to obtain this inequity of emotion, but i do. I must get a real rush out of it. I dropped some of my drama quite recently and have been embracing the good things in life. I like being cared about. This stupid fucking tornado or whatever it was has kinda fucked things up around here. Ive been spending most of my days cleaning up the mess at my house or at other houses. It got my porch gooooood. Every time i clean up the leaves that blow in on my porch, it rains again, gets windy again and more leaves blow in. Fuckers fuckers fuckers. I am scared to death of leaving this town. I know exactly what im leaving behind and that makes it so much worse. I know how much potential where i am going gives me. But recent events and persons in my life have given me a new love for tampa. Oh well. i know i am going to leave. How i will deal with it is something i can save for later. for now i am just going to take in the last of my good experiances, and when im gone im going to try (and fail) not to look back. wow zakk (my guitarist and long lost brother from another mother) is back from london. I should hang out with him, i must hear of the stories because apparently he saw testament while he was there. My influence is working! haha! I need to go to lowes. Fuckwheresmahkeys!? Im trying to figure out what of three things i could do today. Im out. Bye bye