Papyrus Containing the Spell to Preserve Its Possesor Against Attacks from He who is In the Water
Awesome song title.
She won't read this, but I don't mind. Part of my is filled with grief and shame over failing in my responsibility as her friend... but part of me just says fuck it. It's not worth the strife. I'm wondering right now if I should continue in this pointless and nearly masochistic quest to win her approval. I really don't get much out of it. I never have. Well, I can't truly say that I never have, but I'm not getting anything out of this friendship anymore except grief and hardship. Sure, I leaped to a conclusion... but I apologized. And listened. And admitted I was wrong. And thanked her when she did what is right. I fucked up... that's the thing about intuition... it's blind. But after all I've done for her, all the pain I've gone through for her... she repays me like this? With scorn and hatred the one time I stumble? That isn't fair. But, id I call her out on this, if I confront her about it, she will surely despise me.
Oh well.
Incubus makes me feel good.
She won't read this, but I don't mind. Part of my is filled with grief and shame over failing in my responsibility as her friend... but part of me just says fuck it. It's not worth the strife. I'm wondering right now if I should continue in this pointless and nearly masochistic quest to win her approval. I really don't get much out of it. I never have. Well, I can't truly say that I never have, but I'm not getting anything out of this friendship anymore except grief and hardship. Sure, I leaped to a conclusion... but I apologized. And listened. And admitted I was wrong. And thanked her when she did what is right. I fucked up... that's the thing about intuition... it's blind. But after all I've done for her, all the pain I've gone through for her... she repays me like this? With scorn and hatred the one time I stumble? That isn't fair. But, id I call her out on this, if I confront her about it, she will surely despise me.
Oh well.
Incubus makes me feel good.