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Today would have been my workaversary.
I don't regret my decision to leave my job, I don't regret my decision to move to the other side of the country.
But I'm a bit lonely, and having a bit of an identity crisis.
Who am I outside of that job? Who am I if I'm not practicing public interest law? Who am I if I'm staying home most of the time and I only know a few people and everything feels so very up in the air?
I want to write. I'm working on some things. I'm also very close to finalizing my admission to the Washington bar, I just have to finish a very boring online course and then schedule my swearing in.
But more and more I don't want to return to the practice of law. I came out here for a calmer, gentler life. And I don't know that law will give me that. When I think about it, I freeze up. I'm very very lucky in that I have some time to figure out what I want to do and some time to relax and some time to try new things, but it can't go on forever.
AAAAAAANNNNNNND I just burst into tears because I realized I really don't, just don't, want to be a lawyer right now. Not any time soon. I still want to be sworn in and do all that, but...no. Every time I think about it I get so very tired.
So who I am going to be now? *deep breath*
I don't regret my decision to leave my job, I don't regret my decision to move to the other side of the country.
But I'm a bit lonely, and having a bit of an identity crisis.
Who am I outside of that job? Who am I if I'm not practicing public interest law? Who am I if I'm staying home most of the time and I only know a few people and everything feels so very up in the air?
I want to write. I'm working on some things. I'm also very close to finalizing my admission to the Washington bar, I just have to finish a very boring online course and then schedule my swearing in.
But more and more I don't want to return to the practice of law. I came out here for a calmer, gentler life. And I don't know that law will give me that. When I think about it, I freeze up. I'm very very lucky in that I have some time to figure out what I want to do and some time to relax and some time to try new things, but it can't go on forever.
AAAAAAANNNNNNND I just burst into tears because I realized I really don't, just don't, want to be a lawyer right now. Not any time soon. I still want to be sworn in and do all that, but...no. Every time I think about it I get so very tired.
So who I am going to be now? *deep breath*