Dec 04, 2005 21:26
In the long history of the things that I've said since the beginning of time, I can think of a few of them that I regret. It's harder to come up with the things I regret not saying. It's hard to tell until much later, when you get to sit down and really think about it, and consider all of the angles of what's going on. Should I have said that? Should I have kept that to myself?
You'd think it would be easier for a being that can step out of Time and be anywhere at any moment. But it isn't. Things happen so very quickly sometimes, there isn't that chance to abuse the power and try to do the right thing.
I think though, I think that the thing that I regret not saying in all of this time...
I think I regret not telling my daughter directly that I love her.
I brought her into my home when she was little, and raised her as my own. Or as much my own as she could be, considering. I don't know if she was ever really happy in her life with me, but I can hope that I did enough for her.
We never really spoke, not about the things that a regular family would talk about anyway, and I regret that too sometimes. But not as much as I regret never telling her that. I should have. I'm sure she knew, but it's one thing to know, and another to hear.
I have a wonderful granddaughter from her, though.
I can hope I don't make the same mistakes.