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[end_the_pain]

i love it when nobody comments.
it's awesome.

today sucked
just like every other day
don't get mad that i'm complaining in my journal
because thats what my fucking journal is for.
kthx.

i'm pretty much so emotionally exhausted that i can't even fathom getting up and doing anything.ever.again.in my entire life.

tomorrow is only thursday. thats depressing. that means amanda's leaving too. depressing as well. i need to find someone who i don't see very often to go hang out with. someone who's not wrapped up in my everyday life and could possibly just enjoy my presence for a meer hour or two.

i always plan a billion things to do, never get them done, then get depressed about it.
from now on i'm not planning anything.
if i don't do anything then oh well.
the most that will become of my life is a white padded room with a metal bed and a toilet.

i have to go to daytona this weekend and i don't want to. i don't want to leave my babies.