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spent the night with kelly...I really just don't know.
I like her, but I don't know if my feelings are strong enough to continue on with a relationship. I feel like I'm kidding myself and leading her on. I don't want to do that to her because I really do like her and I don't want to hurt her at all. Maybe Kelly is really right for me and I just can't see that because I'm still confused with Brooke. I really can't figure Brooke out, but all the while I can't help but want to be with her. I hungout with her last week and we talked about a lot of stuff including what we both want as far as relationships go and I think we feel pretty mutual. I want someone to casually date, yet still exclusively, that's a friend, that I can have a lot of fun with despite the whole relationship deal, and see where that goes instead of just jumping into something with the intentions of a close romantic relationship. I don't know, if Brooke wasn't in the picture I'd probably be head over heels for Kelly...but Brooke is in the picture and I don't want to deny my feelings for her but I also don't want to upset Kelly in the process, because I do care about her...I'm an asshole.
by the way, watch Kinsey, really interesting movie about the pioneering of the study of human sexuality.
I need someone with a truck so I can move my bed to my parents house, everything else is already there. I just want to finish this process. I'm going to miss all my roommates, especially meghann, but I think I'll be a little happier for a while being closer to old friends that I never get to see anymore, and I'll definately be more financially stable. I'm trying to make this change as positive as possible.
goddamn, I'm a jerk.
I like her, but I don't know if my feelings are strong enough to continue on with a relationship. I feel like I'm kidding myself and leading her on. I don't want to do that to her because I really do like her and I don't want to hurt her at all. Maybe Kelly is really right for me and I just can't see that because I'm still confused with Brooke. I really can't figure Brooke out, but all the while I can't help but want to be with her. I hungout with her last week and we talked about a lot of stuff including what we both want as far as relationships go and I think we feel pretty mutual. I want someone to casually date, yet still exclusively, that's a friend, that I can have a lot of fun with despite the whole relationship deal, and see where that goes instead of just jumping into something with the intentions of a close romantic relationship. I don't know, if Brooke wasn't in the picture I'd probably be head over heels for Kelly...but Brooke is in the picture and I don't want to deny my feelings for her but I also don't want to upset Kelly in the process, because I do care about her...I'm an asshole.
by the way, watch Kinsey, really interesting movie about the pioneering of the study of human sexuality.
I need someone with a truck so I can move my bed to my parents house, everything else is already there. I just want to finish this process. I'm going to miss all my roommates, especially meghann, but I think I'll be a little happier for a while being closer to old friends that I never get to see anymore, and I'll definately be more financially stable. I'm trying to make this change as positive as possible.
goddamn, I'm a jerk.