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#01 - Air
Nate has just said the worst words he could ever say and Pat reaches, but Nate moves so he only finds air.
#02 - Apples
Pat hides his mischievous little smile behind his apple as he plots in his mind.
#03 - Beginning
Pat jerks back just in time, and in hindsight, he probably knew right from the beginning, that moment there, that this was not brotherly.
#04 - Bugs
Pat doesn't like bugs, and wrinkles his nose as Nate examines one with glee.
#05 - Coffee
Pat can't understand why Nate won't have ice cream with he and Nathalie...it's coffee, he likes coffee ice cream, doesn't he?
#06 - Dark
Pat wants to lash out bitterly, but Nate is smiling at something on the computer screen and Pat is helpless.
#07 - Despair
He can remember the day they did laundry, and what happened the next night, and /hates/ this new guy for taking Nate away.
#08 - Doors
Pat takes to making sure the door is locked at night, knowing that in the light of day they deny it but they'll be doing things they don't want walked in on.
#09 - Drink
Pat briefly considers turning to the bottle when Nate leaves, but he can't think where he'd get it.
#10 - Duty
Pat's mom is gone on another mission, but Nate hugs him one-armed and strokes his hair with the other hand, and it doesn't seem all that bad.
#11 - Earth
Pat's world is getting ripped down every day, and built back up every night.
#12 - End
This can't be the end.
#13 - Fall
Nate rocks down one last time and Pat knows this is just embarassing but he bites nearly through his lip as he comes like a volcano inside his pajama pants.
#14 - Fire
Pat reflects, in a vague sort of postcoital haze, that Nate's hair should have given him a clue how fucking hot he was.
#15 - Flexible
Pat stares at the positions in the porn Nate is showing his thirteen-year-old self slightly wide-eyed and he's not sure he'd be flexible enough for that.
#16 - Flying
Pat, in some weird, disconnected way, isn't sure that what he's feeling right now is possible, and he knows that that doesn't make sense, but then Nate's tongue moves again and the last vestiges of confused thought are wiped away.
#17 - Food
They know they ought to move for something like food, but they're comfortable cuddling, having found the absolute perfect position.
#18 - Foot
Pat giggles when Nate tickles his foot, and the soft smile on Nate's face in response is enough to fill his heart for a week.
#19 - Grave
Pat can't help wondering what chance this really has of ending well.
#20 - Green
Pat tickles Nate's nose with a blade of grass, smiling sweetly when the red-haired boy scrunches his face up.
#21 - Head
Pat licks at it again and he likes the taste, and even more than that he likes that moan, and he reminds himself that this is all...brotherly.
#22 - Hollow
Pat can't seem to keep his eyes off that spot, wondering how it tastes.
#23 - Honor
This is probably wrong, actually, on at least some level.
#24 - Hope
He knows Nate has his other guy now, and Pat is trying to recover from what he has now accepted is a cult, but he really wishes Nate would stop giving him those looks that keep him hoping.
#25 - Light
Nate has a kind of light around him that Pat will never be able to get away from, never be able to resist.
#26 - Lost
Pat would be lost without him, even when he hates him.
#27 - Metal
Pat kinda likes tugging on that little lip ring, just for the noises Nate makes.
#28 - New
Pat simultaneously loves and hates this new beginning, part of him desperately glad for the chance, part of him terrified it will go just like last time.
#29 - Old
And they fall into the old pattern again.
#30 - Peace
But there's a kind of comfort in it, even as it rips them apart, this time beyond repair.
#31 - Poison
It will kill them eventually if one of them can't stop it.
#32 - Pretty
Nate tells Pat once that he's pretty, when they're young, and he's not sure whether to blush or punch him.
#33 - Rain
Kissing in the rain is officially Pat's new favorite thing EVER.
#34 - Regret
He can't bring himself to regret it.
#35 - Roses
They don't do the flowers and cards thing; they don't need it.
#36 - Secret
Pat wants to shout this from the rooftops, but somehow that seems wrong.
#37 - Snakes
Pat squeals like a girl whenever he sees a snake; trouser snakes excepted, unless they're good enough.
#38 - Snow
At one point Pat tries cocaine, but it fills his head with even more memories so he vows never to touch it again, unless he and Nate are happy.
#39 - Solid
Everything and yet nothing about this is any kind of solid.
#40 - Spring
They lay in the grass, facing opposite directions, heads on each others' shoulders, and they both wake up with an ugly sunburn that will hurt and peel for days but Pat, later on, is pretty sure this was the exact moment they fell, for better or worse.
#41 - Stable
Somewhat counterintuitively, he's pretty sure Nate is the least stable thing in his life most of the time.
#42 - Strange
The first time Nate kissed him --really kissed him, that is -- Pat got hard almost instantly and it struck him as odd, because he'd only been hard because of a person maybe twice before, ever.
#43 - Summer
They like when summer comes, cause they can have sleepovers every single night if they want to, especially when Pat gets old enough to cook and do laundry and his mom starts leaving for more missions, leaving them alone in the house.
#44 - Taboo
Brotherly...yeah.
#45 - Ugly
Pat feels ugly next to how amazingly beautiful Nate is.
#46 - War
They only fight once in the entire saga, and Pat sortof thinks he prefers that to the bitterness and hurt and sympathetic looks.
#47 - Water
Pat can't look at showers without getting hard anymore.
#48 - Welcome
Nate throws the door open and Pat grins, because everything -- literally everything -- is okay now.
#49 - Winter
Nate makes love to him, then whispers in his ear that he and Johnny made it official last night.
#50 - Wood
Pat's never gonna be the same after that incident with the hot dog and the laundry basket.
Nate has just said the worst words he could ever say and Pat reaches, but Nate moves so he only finds air.
#02 - Apples
Pat hides his mischievous little smile behind his apple as he plots in his mind.
#03 - Beginning
Pat jerks back just in time, and in hindsight, he probably knew right from the beginning, that moment there, that this was not brotherly.
#04 - Bugs
Pat doesn't like bugs, and wrinkles his nose as Nate examines one with glee.
#05 - Coffee
Pat can't understand why Nate won't have ice cream with he and Nathalie...it's coffee, he likes coffee ice cream, doesn't he?
#06 - Dark
Pat wants to lash out bitterly, but Nate is smiling at something on the computer screen and Pat is helpless.
#07 - Despair
He can remember the day they did laundry, and what happened the next night, and /hates/ this new guy for taking Nate away.
#08 - Doors
Pat takes to making sure the door is locked at night, knowing that in the light of day they deny it but they'll be doing things they don't want walked in on.
#09 - Drink
Pat briefly considers turning to the bottle when Nate leaves, but he can't think where he'd get it.
#10 - Duty
Pat's mom is gone on another mission, but Nate hugs him one-armed and strokes his hair with the other hand, and it doesn't seem all that bad.
#11 - Earth
Pat's world is getting ripped down every day, and built back up every night.
#12 - End
This can't be the end.
#13 - Fall
Nate rocks down one last time and Pat knows this is just embarassing but he bites nearly through his lip as he comes like a volcano inside his pajama pants.
#14 - Fire
Pat reflects, in a vague sort of postcoital haze, that Nate's hair should have given him a clue how fucking hot he was.
#15 - Flexible
Pat stares at the positions in the porn Nate is showing his thirteen-year-old self slightly wide-eyed and he's not sure he'd be flexible enough for that.
#16 - Flying
Pat, in some weird, disconnected way, isn't sure that what he's feeling right now is possible, and he knows that that doesn't make sense, but then Nate's tongue moves again and the last vestiges of confused thought are wiped away.
#17 - Food
They know they ought to move for something like food, but they're comfortable cuddling, having found the absolute perfect position.
#18 - Foot
Pat giggles when Nate tickles his foot, and the soft smile on Nate's face in response is enough to fill his heart for a week.
#19 - Grave
Pat can't help wondering what chance this really has of ending well.
#20 - Green
Pat tickles Nate's nose with a blade of grass, smiling sweetly when the red-haired boy scrunches his face up.
#21 - Head
Pat licks at it again and he likes the taste, and even more than that he likes that moan, and he reminds himself that this is all...brotherly.
#22 - Hollow
Pat can't seem to keep his eyes off that spot, wondering how it tastes.
#23 - Honor
This is probably wrong, actually, on at least some level.
#24 - Hope
He knows Nate has his other guy now, and Pat is trying to recover from what he has now accepted is a cult, but he really wishes Nate would stop giving him those looks that keep him hoping.
#25 - Light
Nate has a kind of light around him that Pat will never be able to get away from, never be able to resist.
#26 - Lost
Pat would be lost without him, even when he hates him.
#27 - Metal
Pat kinda likes tugging on that little lip ring, just for the noises Nate makes.
#28 - New
Pat simultaneously loves and hates this new beginning, part of him desperately glad for the chance, part of him terrified it will go just like last time.
#29 - Old
And they fall into the old pattern again.
#30 - Peace
But there's a kind of comfort in it, even as it rips them apart, this time beyond repair.
#31 - Poison
It will kill them eventually if one of them can't stop it.
#32 - Pretty
Nate tells Pat once that he's pretty, when they're young, and he's not sure whether to blush or punch him.
#33 - Rain
Kissing in the rain is officially Pat's new favorite thing EVER.
#34 - Regret
He can't bring himself to regret it.
#35 - Roses
They don't do the flowers and cards thing; they don't need it.
#36 - Secret
Pat wants to shout this from the rooftops, but somehow that seems wrong.
#37 - Snakes
Pat squeals like a girl whenever he sees a snake; trouser snakes excepted, unless they're good enough.
#38 - Snow
At one point Pat tries cocaine, but it fills his head with even more memories so he vows never to touch it again, unless he and Nate are happy.
#39 - Solid
Everything and yet nothing about this is any kind of solid.
#40 - Spring
They lay in the grass, facing opposite directions, heads on each others' shoulders, and they both wake up with an ugly sunburn that will hurt and peel for days but Pat, later on, is pretty sure this was the exact moment they fell, for better or worse.
#41 - Stable
Somewhat counterintuitively, he's pretty sure Nate is the least stable thing in his life most of the time.
#42 - Strange
The first time Nate kissed him --really kissed him, that is -- Pat got hard almost instantly and it struck him as odd, because he'd only been hard because of a person maybe twice before, ever.
#43 - Summer
They like when summer comes, cause they can have sleepovers every single night if they want to, especially when Pat gets old enough to cook and do laundry and his mom starts leaving for more missions, leaving them alone in the house.
#44 - Taboo
Brotherly...yeah.
#45 - Ugly
Pat feels ugly next to how amazingly beautiful Nate is.
#46 - War
They only fight once in the entire saga, and Pat sortof thinks he prefers that to the bitterness and hurt and sympathetic looks.
#47 - Water
Pat can't look at showers without getting hard anymore.
#48 - Welcome
Nate throws the door open and Pat grins, because everything -- literally everything -- is okay now.
#49 - Winter
Nate makes love to him, then whispers in his ear that he and Johnny made it official last night.
#50 - Wood
Pat's never gonna be the same after that incident with the hot dog and the laundry basket.