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I wish I knew what I wanted to do, what I can do to graduate school.
Sometimes it hits me and just wonder if I'm ever going to find out what I would like to do or if there's even any point of me going to school and I wonder how much longer I'm gong to be around in the world. What's the point ?
I'm not very special or skilled.
If only throwing in the towel to everything you've ever known were easier, like dying in your sleep and not knowing that you just died cause you're just sleeping.
I thought I was okay.
This always happens to me.
I have lots of self esteem issues, I know, but I don't see how it's possible to change my outlook when this is all I know how to think. Yeah, I've thought positively before but normally it ends up going wrong.
I'm overly sensitive and I'm very concerned about what someone else is going to think, that's how I've been, how do I just stop all my thoughts from racing on those things all the time ?
There were so many times where I thought I was okay, but I'm really not and I don't know if I ever can be.
It's tiring to live and think like this every day and I just don't want to do it anymore.