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It's been a while
But, at least I make a point, on a whim, to make a post when I think to
I have a lot of conflicting thoughts and emotions, which is really frusterating
Examples
Being alone with minimal friends is nice. It prevents dramatic scenarios and I get more alone contemplative time
VS.
I'm an extroverted person. I thrive on being social and I wish I had a decent sized social circle. This gets kind of lonely.
Getting to know people is kind of discouraging to me now because there's so many bullshiting, manipulating fake people out there. I don't want to play games, I want straight foward emotions, nothing passive aggressive or sabotaging.
But the gift of this is the people I do end up closely befriending are gems, I look back and appreciate how rare it is to come across someone that my personality is compatible with.
These people always pop up unexpectably.
I love Robbie and I love how we randomly met, he's a good, loyal, caring friend and lover.
We're alike in a lot of ways and also different. I'd say more but this keyboard is pissing me off.
(This keyboard at the library is giving me a hard typing. I litterally have to punch the keys! I think my wrists are hurting now)
My other pal is Alan, my random 78 year old pal. He's good company and tells a lot of jokes, Robbie and I love him, hahahaaa.
Those are the only people I'm personally social with on a regular basis.
When I'm at work Monday through Friday I only get to interact with people on a professional level and a customer service level. Also, the dogs, I love the dogs that come in for daycare. Sometimes they're a pain in the ass cause they won't stop fucking barking when I'm answering phone calls and when they decide to piss and shit inside, but I love them anyway. I wouldn't like my job as much if it weren't for them.
Okay, that's all for now. This keyboard is pissing me off.