Dec 29, 2008 21:18
I have a problem.
I self-diagnose myself. Which I guess wouldn't be a real problem if I didn't self-medicate myself as well; and if anyone knows anything about medicine and psychological (any form of psychology for that matter) patients, is that they should never self-medicate themselves.
My mind, my mentality is always moving faster than what I can type, write, and sometimes think. Which makes it difficult for me to explain things, or at least write them down.
It's been stated that our brains are supercomputers...well...my 'supercomputer' has:
16GB of DDR3RAM,
5.5Ghrz on quad channels leading to
a triple liquid coolant flow CPU...
Which compared to everyone else's computer which is having trouble running windows 95.
So i being my diagnoses...
My first thought, how can I get everyone to think and understand me?
Well I can't change the way everyone's brain works, so scratch that idea.
Second approach: What can I do to myself to make people understand.
Solution: Slow Down.
Immediately only one solution, besides, spelling out each word for my listeners, come to my mind:
When I was about 17 I drank my first Energy Drink, and I passed out within minutes.
At the time, I was like "Great it does the reverse effect on me, now I'm a freak like the other 15% that it applies to."
Little did I know, that soon that drain would be my solution.
I rushed to the closest convenience store and bought a Monster Energy Drink, and drank the entire 16oz...
...
putting my brain almost to a stand still...
"Maybe I should take sips?"
So when I recover, I take another trip to the store, and buy another.
*One Sip*
Types a few lines
*Brain slowly becomes overworked*
*Another sip follows*
*Calming down*
Types more lines
Repeat...about 5 times, and then my body becomes stable enough to not worry.
I've been writing for only 15 minutes now, and I've taken 3 sips.
Success.
But that is STILL not my main problem. The PROBLEM at hand that I have with self-diagnosing and self-medicating, is the "self" part.
Others ask me what is wrong with them, how they can fix it, and/or what/who caused it.
I'm NOT a licensed doctor or psychotherapist. (note the licensed)
But like I said before, I like to Diagnose and Medicate the problem.
Why do they think so? What causes them to come to me?
After thinking a conclusion is made;
I treat them like people. I listen to there problems. (note like a REAL LICENSED psychotherapist)
Which leads them to believe that I have the 'True' answer.
The world is full of circles built on questions, and their answers.
I believe that I am the way I am because I look for the questions to the answers, not the answers to the questions we all seek.
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