Jan 07, 2003 14:40
"If your confidence begins to lapse, take five to count your blessings. Intimates, aquaintance, colleagues, and even the dog or cat next door think you are smart, witty, attractive, generous, and reliable. So there."
That's my Virgo calendar telling me like it is for the day. It's true too. Not just for today unfortunately. I have very little self confidence when it comes to many things, more specifically people and relationships. I think I will forever be paranoid about being alone or everyone secretly hating me or disliking me. I know I SHOULDN'T feel that way, because somewhere in the back of my mind I know it's not true. It's just a conditioned response from when I was younger and people really didn't like me so much. I think I was stabbed in the back too many times by so called "best friends." Today things are WAAAAAAY different, and I KNOW that people like me. I just get little spells sometimes of uncertainty and doubt. Not that I'm dwelling on it today or anything. I'm actually not, but this calendar reminded me. However, if I've hurt anyone or misunderstood anyone or pushed anyone away because of my sometimes uncertainty and doubt, I would like to apologize greatly now. I do take five to count my blessings today, because I have so many great people around me. I hope that they know that I do appriciate them, and know that sometimes it is their confidence in me that restores my confidence in myself. I wouldn't give them away for ANYTHING!!! Also, in turn, I hope they know that I also have so much confidence in all of them!!! Just like the cat and dog next door I think you guys and gals are smart, witty, attractive, generous, and reliable. So there. ;-)
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