I keep telling myself it will all be ok...

[enchantress299]

I want nothing more than to curl up into a ball and never go back to my job again. This week has been shitty. I haven't been this miserable since... I don't know when.

I feel like I'm failing at life.

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[enchantress299]

Yeah... I understand.

And I agree that it's not just me, it IS everyone. Part of the problem is that at *MOST* places of business there is a hiring freeze going on because companies don't want to hire new workers when they aren't sure whether or not they are going to be able to weather the financial storm.

What that ends up doing for those of us who are still employed is gives us HUGE amounts of work and no one else to help us. That's my theory anyway... I've got twice the work, but I'm still only getting paid minimally more than what I was getting paid last year. I'm amazed I got a raise quite frankly. And especially for me, since I'm only making a few dollars over minimum wage it's almost not worth it to have this amount of stress with the amount of money I'm making. I never went into this field for the money, but I never went in to be just a case manager either.

I agree about Pluto in Sag, though I didn't actually think that Pluto in Sag was all that much better for me. Currently Pluto has been trining my Venus/MC/Sun, and I felt that when it hit. It helped me a bit at the time. I don't mind the transformation stuff because I know I'll come out the other side better off than I was before. Because it's going into my 2nd house, I will hopefully be able to slowly pay my way out of the grad school debt I got myself into at the end of Pluto in Sag.

I'm sorry that everything else in your life is falling apart aside from work. For me it's the opposite. Work is shit, and everything else is ok, however my mood outside of work is starting to be effected by what's happening at work, so I'm going to have to make some sort of change soon. I understand though about feeling like things are changing... I think they are for everyone. It'll be fun to see where it all ends up, if nothing else.

Anyway, thanks for the words of encouragement. :-) I need them. I hope that you are also able to get through your stuff as happily as you can. Life can be hard sometimes.

[kuroi_atriet]

I checked your chart again and saw some stuff going on... rather than wasting space here, I'll just email you. :D You know how wordy I can get, and I've discovered LJ comments do have a character limit, so... yeah.

[enchantress299]

Sounds good. I'm looking forward to it. :-) Lately I've been looking at my transit chart very blankly. I *KNOW* there's something going on there that I'm not seeing clearly.