Jul 29, 2005 23:42
Why seek the enlightment when I knew fully well that it would just hurt me?
I don't possess the will power to resist temptation. The apple of eden.
Perhaps that sometimes, it is better to endure the pain and lose the hope, instead of nursing my own disappointment in the future.
I don't know. There are so much I don't know. It is so frustrating.
I think I need a boy friend to take my mind off such heavy depressing thinking. Off him.
He isn't mine. I shouldn't feel anything for him. It is just impossible.
Why does it still bloody hurts?