isn't it ironic?
i'm in a relatively good mood considering that i COMPLETELY blew off my spanish final and paid for that. the written section sucked. okay, i didn't fail but...getting under an 80 in spanish is enough incentive to want to kill myself lol. um. other than that, i'm in a great mood.
tomorrow is my last comprehensive exam. it almost hasn't hit me yet...no more comps EVER AGAIN!
hell, no more high school! unless of course i failed math haha. but i don't think i did errr...
anyway, i have a few things to say about high school.
it had its ups, that it did. there were a lot of good times.
up until this year, i had a pretty tight-knit GROUP of friends.
the summer of going into 10th grade i ran with jackie teta every day.
that was also the summer of going to the beach a lot with katie and jess.
(easily the best summer so far.)
that school year, i also got pretty close with maria, followed by allie and erica.
the summer of going into junior year, i got a lot closer with gina,
and this past summer and school year closer with sara.
i've met a lot of crazy and cool people along the way, also.
ie: sean, dennis, liz, dj uhh. maria's kerrie, kat, sara and erin.
and maybe things fell out with all of us, but people change and i'm sorry if we went out on bad terms.
we'll always have the memories. you guys helped me survive a lot of high school.
there are a lot of people at kellenberg that i will not miss in the least.
i didn't really get close to jen until last year, but i'm really happy i did.
through her i've gotten to know james, keith, dustin, catherine, nancy, marcin and a million other people.
also, through jen i became friends with kristen again.
this year was weird. i definitely found myself and lost myself all at once.
i lost a lot of friends, and made a lot of new ones. i receded back into my shell,
and came out in other ways. haha. that sounded funny. um...
i got to be close with jen this year a lot, as well as james. and of course amanda larocca.
and things with me and jess are absolutely settled in all ways from past crap.
sometimes i'm a bit crazy (in a lot of different ways), and sometimes i think i'm the only sane one.
it's all so weird. four years just fucking FLEW by.
idk. i'm not feeling sad at all, though i'm sure at graduation it will hit me
that my life is going to be very different from here on.
it's been good guys. some people i'm going to see a lot still (ie: jess, erica, sara, jen, heather, probably kristen, and of course james) and some people not as often (amanda, keith, sean etc.).
this doesn't mean we won't be as close as we are now. hell, we'll probably be closer this time next year.
distance really doesn't mean anything. it won't be a problem. i know in my heart how much i love you all and even though i never admit this, i need you all in my life.
i definitely wouldn't be alive/who i am today without any of the people that are/have been in my life.
as for maria, allie, gina...
i'm sorry things became the way they did.
i'm sorry we grew apart.
i'm sorry for ever hurting any of you.
i'm sorry for not being there when you needed me.
i really hope that we can put all the fucking drama behind us.
life is too short to hate. too short to ignore people.
it's too short to hold grudges.
i am well aware that some things cannot be fixed, but i guess this is one of those...
"if you're ever in trouble, you can call me and i'll be there" things.
and maybe we can all hang out over the summer. i don't really know how things are.
since...we don't talk. because we're angry by association...or we don't have school together.
or classes.
the only thing i can say is that tomorrow, after our last final...
i'm putting all high school drama behind me.
i'm leaving with no regrets and open eyes and an open heart.
if anyone wants to reconcile anything, i'm open for it.
i just don't think you'd want to. so if not...
just know that even if stuff turned to shit in the last few months,
we'll always have the memories, and as cheesey as this is,
you'll all always have a special place in my heart.
and now that i'm done with clinton-esque length of a speech,
i guess i'll see you all tomorrow.
here's to the night. let's make prom a good one.
tomorrow is my last comprehensive exam. it almost hasn't hit me yet...no more comps EVER AGAIN!
hell, no more high school! unless of course i failed math haha. but i don't think i did errr...
anyway, i have a few things to say about high school.
it had its ups, that it did. there were a lot of good times.
up until this year, i had a pretty tight-knit GROUP of friends.
the summer of going into 10th grade i ran with jackie teta every day.
that was also the summer of going to the beach a lot with katie and jess.
(easily the best summer so far.)
that school year, i also got pretty close with maria, followed by allie and erica.
the summer of going into junior year, i got a lot closer with gina,
and this past summer and school year closer with sara.
i've met a lot of crazy and cool people along the way, also.
ie: sean, dennis, liz, dj uhh. maria's kerrie, kat, sara and erin.
and maybe things fell out with all of us, but people change and i'm sorry if we went out on bad terms.
we'll always have the memories. you guys helped me survive a lot of high school.
there are a lot of people at kellenberg that i will not miss in the least.
i didn't really get close to jen until last year, but i'm really happy i did.
through her i've gotten to know james, keith, dustin, catherine, nancy, marcin and a million other people.
also, through jen i became friends with kristen again.
this year was weird. i definitely found myself and lost myself all at once.
i lost a lot of friends, and made a lot of new ones. i receded back into my shell,
and came out in other ways. haha. that sounded funny. um...
i got to be close with jen this year a lot, as well as james. and of course amanda larocca.
and things with me and jess are absolutely settled in all ways from past crap.
sometimes i'm a bit crazy (in a lot of different ways), and sometimes i think i'm the only sane one.
it's all so weird. four years just fucking FLEW by.
idk. i'm not feeling sad at all, though i'm sure at graduation it will hit me
that my life is going to be very different from here on.
it's been good guys. some people i'm going to see a lot still (ie: jess, erica, sara, jen, heather, probably kristen, and of course james) and some people not as often (amanda, keith, sean etc.).
this doesn't mean we won't be as close as we are now. hell, we'll probably be closer this time next year.
distance really doesn't mean anything. it won't be a problem. i know in my heart how much i love you all and even though i never admit this, i need you all in my life.
i definitely wouldn't be alive/who i am today without any of the people that are/have been in my life.
as for maria, allie, gina...
i'm sorry things became the way they did.
i'm sorry we grew apart.
i'm sorry for ever hurting any of you.
i'm sorry for not being there when you needed me.
i really hope that we can put all the fucking drama behind us.
life is too short to hate. too short to ignore people.
it's too short to hold grudges.
i am well aware that some things cannot be fixed, but i guess this is one of those...
"if you're ever in trouble, you can call me and i'll be there" things.
and maybe we can all hang out over the summer. i don't really know how things are.
since...we don't talk. because we're angry by association...or we don't have school together.
or classes.
the only thing i can say is that tomorrow, after our last final...
i'm putting all high school drama behind me.
i'm leaving with no regrets and open eyes and an open heart.
if anyone wants to reconcile anything, i'm open for it.
i just don't think you'd want to. so if not...
just know that even if stuff turned to shit in the last few months,
we'll always have the memories, and as cheesey as this is,
you'll all always have a special place in my heart.
and now that i'm done with clinton-esque length of a speech,
i guess i'll see you all tomorrow.
here's to the night. let's make prom a good one.