just another day
So, of course it's been awhile. Once again.
I think my problem is that I wait to write something prolific in the hopes that when I glance back over it in the future, I will remember my life as being more meaningful than the mundane occurrences of everyday life.
But that's not really what it's about, is it?
So, clearly, I am still living; albeit, not well lately. I've been in a funk for awhile, and I'm pretty sure that I have just come to that point in my life (it is cyclical, really), where I feel like I need a renewal. I need to find some spring within the fall. I had a job for a brief amount of time...in social work. And I learned, in such a short time, quite a few things about myself. Mainly, that I want to work with healthy kids. I'm too sensitive to work with sick kids....I just can't make everyone better and I take that personally.
I'm currently applying to graduate programs in education. I just feel it's right on so many levels. And...I'm done talking about that. So much of my life consists of my daily decision of what I want to do with my life. It is repetitive and dull.
I've been feeling kind of hermity for awhile. Whenever I don't feel like interacting with other people and hiding away from everyone, I call it "The Hermit". I just kind of drop off the face of the earth for awhile, and do some searching and pamper my psyche. I'm thinking about taking a bath tonight while Joey's at class...reading my book with some candles and some of the lavender chamomile Dream Bath and just soaking away all my despair.
I'm so sick of looking for a job. Searching for a life that doesn't suit me so that I can make it day to day. It's such a depressing process; it drains me of any self confidence I have tenuously constructed. I'm pretty sure that the employment process was created by The National Sadist Association.
Sweet Jesus, I am so emo. My life isn't really so bad. I've just had a bad...well, year, really. I honestly love where I live, my partner in love, my family, and even some of my friends. :] I am intensely excited about the prospect of teaching and I am excited about life in general. Now, I just have to stop procrastinating on my SOPs.
I think my problem is that I wait to write something prolific in the hopes that when I glance back over it in the future, I will remember my life as being more meaningful than the mundane occurrences of everyday life.
But that's not really what it's about, is it?
So, clearly, I am still living; albeit, not well lately. I've been in a funk for awhile, and I'm pretty sure that I have just come to that point in my life (it is cyclical, really), where I feel like I need a renewal. I need to find some spring within the fall. I had a job for a brief amount of time...in social work. And I learned, in such a short time, quite a few things about myself. Mainly, that I want to work with healthy kids. I'm too sensitive to work with sick kids....I just can't make everyone better and I take that personally.
I'm currently applying to graduate programs in education. I just feel it's right on so many levels. And...I'm done talking about that. So much of my life consists of my daily decision of what I want to do with my life. It is repetitive and dull.
I've been feeling kind of hermity for awhile. Whenever I don't feel like interacting with other people and hiding away from everyone, I call it "The Hermit". I just kind of drop off the face of the earth for awhile, and do some searching and pamper my psyche. I'm thinking about taking a bath tonight while Joey's at class...reading my book with some candles and some of the lavender chamomile Dream Bath and just soaking away all my despair.
I'm so sick of looking for a job. Searching for a life that doesn't suit me so that I can make it day to day. It's such a depressing process; it drains me of any self confidence I have tenuously constructed. I'm pretty sure that the employment process was created by The National Sadist Association.
Sweet Jesus, I am so emo. My life isn't really so bad. I've just had a bad...well, year, really. I honestly love where I live, my partner in love, my family, and even some of my friends. :] I am intensely excited about the prospect of teaching and I am excited about life in general. Now, I just have to stop procrastinating on my SOPs.