people
I've been thinking a lot today about people. Especially people in my life who mean a lot to me. I have a lot of people I call friend. But most of them, well I'm lucky to see maybe once a month. Of course I have my Luke with me every day. But there are other people in my life.. well I wish they were more a part of my life.
Sometimes it's hard for me to reach out to people. Its hard to call or message a friend and invite them over and have them say, "no I'm too busy". If it happens once I try to understand, but after awhile I stop calling them, stop asking them to be in my life.
I know I'm a busy person. And I have good friends who I love who invite me and I find that I'm too busy. And I hate when I realize they haven't called in a while cause the last 2 or 3 time I really was to busy, unavailable or had other plans.
It got me to thinking, who are my friends? How do I have friends? Are my friends the ones I call or the ones that call me? Cause I only have 3 or 4 people who I find the invites reciprocal. As in they invite me as often as I invite them. There is a small list of people I always want to see and find I have to work hard at being with, if they even make time for me at all. And there are other people who I like, but don't tend to think of when I'm feeling social. People I should call more. I tend to think of the upbeat happy people who energize me. And I hope I am not a drain on them. Cause I know I find it hard to be around people who are depressed all the time. But the people I enjoy most are always doing something else when I call lately. Are people really that busy or do I just feel lonely a lot lately?
I often come home tired in the evening and unless I have already made plans, I am likely to just hang out at home and work on projects here. But 4 weekends aren't very much time for seeing people every month. So I do understand that time and energy is limited.
I guess I'm just wondering about my friends and hoping they will come out of hiding as the weather warms up. And that the 5 to 20 miles won't seem like such a long way to go to visit when the sun stays up late and the roads are ice free.
I enjoy the snow and winter more then most and would miss it if I went to far south but I miss seeing people when I'm lonely and snowed in in the dark of Januar
Sometimes it's hard for me to reach out to people. Its hard to call or message a friend and invite them over and have them say, "no I'm too busy". If it happens once I try to understand, but after awhile I stop calling them, stop asking them to be in my life.
I know I'm a busy person. And I have good friends who I love who invite me and I find that I'm too busy. And I hate when I realize they haven't called in a while cause the last 2 or 3 time I really was to busy, unavailable or had other plans.
It got me to thinking, who are my friends? How do I have friends? Are my friends the ones I call or the ones that call me? Cause I only have 3 or 4 people who I find the invites reciprocal. As in they invite me as often as I invite them. There is a small list of people I always want to see and find I have to work hard at being with, if they even make time for me at all. And there are other people who I like, but don't tend to think of when I'm feeling social. People I should call more. I tend to think of the upbeat happy people who energize me. And I hope I am not a drain on them. Cause I know I find it hard to be around people who are depressed all the time. But the people I enjoy most are always doing something else when I call lately. Are people really that busy or do I just feel lonely a lot lately?
I often come home tired in the evening and unless I have already made plans, I am likely to just hang out at home and work on projects here. But 4 weekends aren't very much time for seeing people every month. So I do understand that time and energy is limited.
I guess I'm just wondering about my friends and hoping they will come out of hiding as the weather warms up. And that the 5 to 20 miles won't seem like such a long way to go to visit when the sun stays up late and the roads are ice free.
I enjoy the snow and winter more then most and would miss it if I went to far south but I miss seeing people when I'm lonely and snowed in in the dark of Januar