Let the floodgates open...
The pain finally surfaced. I feel the loss. I can't stop crying. I'm two and half hours away from the only places I've ever called "home". I'm terrified. Michael, why did you have to be so cruel? Why did you break our relationship? Why? I held on for so long, waiting for things to be like they used to. I just couldn't hold on when there was nothing for me to hold on to. Michael, you weren't even trying to fix what we had. You didn't care about me anymore and that hurts me so much. I've tried to block all the emotions, but I just can't do it anymore. I'm alone, afraid and feeling completely out of control and helpless...
I want things to be normal, back the way they were before the drugs and alcohol and all the lies. Yea, I know I can't go back (in time or to that place).
I can't trust again. You broke us and me.
I want to hate you. I want to feel whole without you.
I want things to be normal, back the way they were before the drugs and alcohol and all the lies. Yea, I know I can't go back (in time or to that place).
I can't trust again. You broke us and me.
I want to hate you. I want to feel whole without you.